Memento
I refuse to succumb
- Apr 6, 2023
- 408
God, today really sucked. I feel so tired and fatigued. I can stop thinking about how useless I am, how little worth I have. I hate living my life, I can't stop thinking it would be better if I wasn't born, because I would never have to experience so much pain, loneliness, and isolation—I would never have to live in a cult (Jehovah Witness) and have my only purpose being told to me my whole life who obedience and service to it. I want to ctb so bad, I could be free from it all. I want real relationships with people who will love me for I am. And never experiencing something like that hurts. Never celebrating your birthday hurts, never being able to interact with the world and feel so out of touch and alone is cruel, having to act fake around the people you love because they would never accept you for who you are is fucked up.
Why did it have to be like this? Why was I born to live in this hell?
I just want to be in peace, quiet and gentle peace from the world I had no choice living in this way.
But I'm glad to be be here, it provides an escape for me, some comfort, and I'm grateful for that
Why did it have to be like this? Why was I born to live in this hell?
I just want to be in peace, quiet and gentle peace from the world I had no choice living in this way.
But I'm glad to be be here, it provides an escape for me, some comfort, and I'm grateful for that