Venting Rope is cheap and gravity is free… Stuck in the eternal now.

[Byebyemap]

I can't remember much that I try to learn or stuff from my own past. I have no inner monologue or pictures. I observe my own incompentence all day long in all areas of life. No ideas come to me. Everything sucks except sleeping and dreaming. I am mostly alone. Lots of pain in the body.

Tried suspended hanging for a few seconds without kicking the chair. It would be so easy. Some comments in the hanging thread make it sound diffucult. WTF is this reality.

I feel not much expect confused and disinterested. I can't even express in words what I want to say. Guess I'm beyond stupid. Glad I found this site.

I guess I'm looking for nothing really. Can't even describe in words the eternal nothingness.

 

[C14]

Hey. Big hug, I wish you happiness.

I was under the impression that trialing this method is risky. Do you have red dots/swelling around your face/lips?

 

[Byebyemap]

Thank you. To you as well.

Nope, I didn't stay long at all, but felt immediately the intense pressure and that fainting would follow very soon and broke up.