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timetodie24
Mage
- Apr 14, 2023
- 581
The metaphorical and literal road to CTB.
I have 2 weeks left till deadline (birthday) to fix the glitch and save up to 100s. So I was planning sometime next week. But I don't know how much longer I can wait. I was in a car driving down the chosen road today and it was and I could imagine it. I'll take something with me to make sure people don't get in my way. I will have way to stop any stupid person who does. Everything is getting too much, really struggling with basics and they are destroying more and more of my brain. I don't feel human, not sure what of me is left. They replace most of my thoughts with theirs. They're closing in and if I leave it too long they will put obstacles in my way. I need to do it sooner. Can't let them win and take others. Must take me. I can feel it. I'll lose capacity or ability to do some if wait too long. I need to do this asap. Such a stupid idiot should've done it sooner. They're coming for me and disaster is coming. It's simple I can do this just step in front and done. Coward. I got it. Will drink a little, get courage.
I have 2 weeks left till deadline (birthday) to fix the glitch and save up to 100s. So I was planning sometime next week. But I don't know how much longer I can wait. I was in a car driving down the chosen road today and it was and I could imagine it. I'll take something with me to make sure people don't get in my way. I will have way to stop any stupid person who does. Everything is getting too much, really struggling with basics and they are destroying more and more of my brain. I don't feel human, not sure what of me is left. They replace most of my thoughts with theirs. They're closing in and if I leave it too long they will put obstacles in my way. I need to do it sooner. Can't let them win and take others. Must take me. I can feel it. I'll lose capacity or ability to do some if wait too long. I need to do this asap. Such a stupid idiot should've done it sooner. They're coming for me and disaster is coming. It's simple I can do this just step in front and done. Coward. I got it. Will drink a little, get courage.
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