madwoman
what a shame she went mad
- May 7, 2025
- 135
I am a shy socially anxious introvert so saying yes to a big event is not always easy but with how suicidal I am, it's even harder. As the days go on, I've been trying not to make much future plans and being noncommittal and kind of living a week at a time. I just got invited to a Christmas party already and I don't know how I'm going to feel then with my situation worsening or if I'll even be here. And I hate making commitments bc they also lead to reasons to stay… but I hate not answering people either. I've been trying to be honest with people how I am mentally (depressed, not mentioned suicidality) and may be able to answer depending on what it is and when and some things are easier than others. I mean, I'm sure some people don't think about it like I do and say yes and then don't care if they cancel later. I mean if I'm dead that's a pretty good excuse for not going but I just don't know how to answer. I don't know how to give a nice non committal answer. Any thoughts?
