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karmaisabitch

karmaisabitch

Mage
Mar 25, 2024
570
I want to die I have no fear from dying! I just can't find resources the ones they have here is impossible to obtain. SN requires medications that I can't even get so either jumping in river or shooting myself. I'm all over the place now I thought it will be easy to die
 
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karmaisabitch

karmaisabitch

Mage
Mar 25, 2024
570
Dying isn't easy at all. I'm sure you can get a rope? That's not suspicious, you only need a place for hanging and I would consider full hanging, partial has a too high failure rate imo.
I'm too scared to hang myself plus I don't want to cause trauma to whoever is going to find me. When I see someone hanged in movies it gives me the creep! Is there medications that I can just take and overdose instead of getting a million things for SN? A lot of people died overdosed I just can't find which one
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
12,838
Those medications are prescription only meds. OTC is rarely lethal and only leads to more suffering, just imagine how awful a failed attempt feels when you wake up in an ICU. Such a failure can be prevented. I wouldn't risk it.

Amitriptyline is probably the "easiest" OD with only 2 meds (Ami+Benzos):

 
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karmaisabitch

karmaisabitch

Mage
Mar 25, 2024
570
Those medications are prescription only meds. OTC is rarely lethal and only leads to more suffering, just imagine how awful a failed attempt feels when you wake up in an ICU. Such a failure can be prevented. I wouldn't risk it.

Amitriptyline is probably the "easiest" OD with only 2 meds (Ami+Benzos):

Thank you so much! I'm going to look through this link! Appreciate you
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,678
I understand, I also feel trapped in this existence because of how inaccessible reliable, peaceful suicide is, it's so dreadful and horrible to me how there isn't the option to just easily die in peace. But anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.
 
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karmaisabitch

karmaisabitch

Mage
Mar 25, 2024
570
I understand, I also feel trapped in this existence because of how inaccessible reliable, peaceful suicide is, it's so dreadful and horrible to me how there isn't the option to just easily die in peace. But anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.
Thank you so much! I'm hoping to find something easier than SN and hanging.
 
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wsx-rt

Student
Apr 17, 2024
100
I want to die I have no fear from dying! I just can't find resources the ones they have here is impossible to obtain. SN requires medications that I can't even get so either jumping in river or shooting myself. I'm all over the place now I thought it will be easy to die
Yes, it turns out it's really not that easy to die, in my country you can buy SN without any problems, so at least I don't have a problem with that
 
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bambibambam

bambibambam

𑄻𑄾 i’m on your side..!!
Jan 29, 2024
138
there's a lot of cases on here with members who ctb with SN alone, there are also online pharmacies who can sell AE's to you. i was struggling with getting them since they require prescriptions but i was able to get meto thanks to a user on here who was kind enough to PM me a list of online pharmacies that offer meto. the things you need for SN are a pain to source,, i honestly think trying to find an AE was harder than getting the SN itself, but it took me under 3 months to get the stuff i need ( the SN, antacid, painkiller, wasn't able to get benzos tho :p ) and i'm going to ctb very soon. i truly wish that it wasn't so hard to die. i wish there was a more simple way to cease existing, humans are terrible beings for restricting the things we need just for a peaceful death.
 
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