Resistance is Futile

[AresCohere]

My mental state is detonating fast again. Violent mood swings, everything slowing down, constant fear and stress, hallucinations and dilutions becoming more and more common.

My family is becoming more aggressive toward me and denying all of my issues when I bring them off or just yelling at me. Everything is louder and louder and I can't explain it. I want help, but I have nowhere to get it. It's over, soon, and I don't know when.

I'm scared and I want to go home.
Should I talk to my therapist about this as one final resort? Or is it not worth it?

 

[Vizzy]

My mental state is detonating fast again. Violent mood swings, everything slowing down, constant fear and stress, hallucinations and dilutions becoming more and more common.

My family is becoming more aggressive toward me and denying all of my issues when I bring them off or just yelling at me. Everything is louder and louder and I can't explain it. I want help, but I have nowhere to get it. It's over, soon, and I don't know when.

I'm scared and I want to go home.
Should I talk to my therapist about this as one final resort? Or is it not worth it?

Sorry you are going through this, hope you find peace

 

[TheHuman]

I would say only talk a little bit about your issues, but don't tell the full thing cuz then your gonna get sent to a psych ward. If that doesn't help then I would say ctb, but only after your sure you can't get help from them.

 

[AresCohere]

I would say only talk a little bit about your issues, but don't tell the full thing cuz then your gonna get sent to a psych ward. If that doesn't help then I would say ctb, but only after your sure you can't get help from them.

I'm tempted to talk to my therapist I've been forced to go to about it as maybe it's a way out, but that seems like a bad idea

 

[TheHuman]

I'm tempted to talk to my therapist I've been forced to go to about it as maybe it's a way out, but that seems like a bad idea

Just tell them a little bit, make your situation seem better than it actually is just try to give them no reason to think you will ctb. I would say just give it a try.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. As others already said, don't say too much and avoid saying stuff that could be related to ctb.

I want help, but I have nowhere to get it.

It's certainly not the time to think about ctb now. Do you have an idea what could be the reason for your mental health deteriorating? The therapist / doc should find the reason or you can do it yourself. This could be the anchor where therapy could kick in in bringing you a better life. This is unfortunately the biggest issue with such illness that often the reasons are unknown. I wish you all the best!

 

[Medicopter1177]

Definitively talk to your therapist.

 

[Slasher]

I'm so sorry for your situation and hope things get better for you soon. You are not alone. Much luck.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so horrible what you are going through, it's certainly such a hellish world we exist in where people suffer so much all through no fault of their own. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[AresCohere]

Definitively talk to your therapist.

I'm worried about being sent to a ward tho. I dont want that to jeopardize the college I got admitted to turning their back on me.

My parents also canceled my last appointment on me for no good reason…

 

[TheHuman]

I'm worried about being sent to a ward tho. I dont want that to jeopardize the college I got admitted to turning their back on me.

My parents also canceled my last appointment on me for no good reason…

I do therapy and I only say things that should be heard, and any implications of wanting to ctb I don't talk about. Just filter what you say so you don't get sent to a ward, if my sorry ass can do it I think you can too.

 

[emptyheart]

I tell my therapist I want CTB all the time and she's cool about it. Definitely not the norm.

 

[clavicals]

I'm so sorry this sounds really difficult.
My advice would be to talk about your feelings. Make it very clear to your therapist in the beginning that you're you're talking about how you feel and you *i feel* statements.
ex: I feel as if I'm going crazy vs I'm am crazy and nothing makes sense
for extra measure if I'm worried always throw in at the end
I'm feeling really hopeless about the future and don't see a way out I know this isn't always the case but it's now I feel right now

because it shows that you're still using your rational mind and you can see different states of self. You're more likely to get a different type of treatment rather than them straight away freaking out and throwing you in crisis

This is what has kept me out of psych wards.