Anxieyote
Sobriety over everything else • 31 • Midwest
- Mar 24, 2021
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The very idea that we are servants of God and our duty is to do good deeds in this life to reserve a spot in the next one has always been a silent acknowledgement that this life is woefully inadequate as it is. Practicing religious people know that they have to do things like sacrifice and give up their needs and comforts for others in order to survive; and they cope with that by having a heaven/nirvana concept—a prize to earn after inevitably experiencing a high degree of stress and discomfort on this planet.
My grandmother engaged in what I would describe as religious roleplay in the days leading up to her death; detailing the idyllic land that God was preparing for her as she was shuffled around in her hospital gown to various surgeries and forced to eat bland hospital food when she had no appetite. I do wonder if it was genuine belief or insanity setting in as she approached her final days with highly diminishing returns (no friends, occasional family visits, lots of sleeping and staring at white walls). You can't tell me someone experiences that without something in their brain or soul getting broken beyond repair; I don't care how many nice nurses there are to talk to you in a sing-song voice.
My grandmother engaged in what I would describe as religious roleplay in the days leading up to her death; detailing the idyllic land that God was preparing for her as she was shuffled around in her hospital gown to various surgeries and forced to eat bland hospital food when she had no appetite. I do wonder if it was genuine belief or insanity setting in as she approached her final days with highly diminishing returns (no friends, occasional family visits, lots of sleeping and staring at white walls). You can't tell me someone experiences that without something in their brain or soul getting broken beyond repair; I don't care how many nice nurses there are to talk to you in a sing-song voice.