Venting relapsing is tough

[triggerfinger]

not exactly about recovering but sort of,.

i thought i'd gotten better but every once in awhile i fall back into being depressed, big mood swings, etc.
the worst is relapsing with self harm. i hate these scars sm. i was planning on getting them medically removed at some point but there's no use if i just keep coming back to it eventually..

 

[2percent]

You're not alone! I find myself visualising the struggle as trying to carry heavy luggage up a downwards-moving escalator. Yes, our minds and bodies work against us but we're still here. Do whatever you can to find joy and pleasure in your life, without shame or guilt. Life is tough and we have to hungrily seek out the beautiful things in it.

Regarding the scars, do they make you feel poorly about your body image? Or is it that they remind you of lower times in your life? Or both?

Sincerely wishing you love and light!

 

[triggerfinger]

You're not alone! I find myself visualising the struggle as trying to carry heavy luggage up a downwards-moving escalator. Yes, our minds and bodies work against us but we're still here. Do whatever you can to find joy and pleasure in your life, without shame or guilt. Life is tough and we have to hungrily seek out the beautiful things in it.

Regarding the scars, do they make you feel poorly about your body image? Or is it that they remind you of lower times in your life? Or both?

Sincerely wishing you love and light!

they both look ugly and remind me of difficult times. :(

i have a cycle of not cutting for a few months and thinking "why did i ever do that before in the first place, lol? im not going to do it again" and then something bad happens that causes me to do it again