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What's your preferred location to CTB? If you can please provide your reasoning

  • Hotel

    Votes: 22 14.7%
  • AirBnB

    Votes: 3 2.0%
  • Car (drive somewhere isolated)

    Votes: 24 16.0%
  • Your own place (apartment, home, etc.)

    Votes: 73 48.7%
  • Others (please explain)

    Votes: 28 18.7%

  • Total voters
    150
NobodyKnowsMe

NobodyKnowsMe

Just biding my time
Dec 21, 2021
582
I'm going to make a reservation for 2 nights. Where I live in most of the hotels, housekeeping still doesn't clean the rooms everyday like they used to before covid. If you want your room cleaned, you have to call the front desk and tell them early in the morning, or else they skip cleaning your room for the day. To be safe, I am going to put the do not disturb sign on the door, and lock the dead bolt.
As long as the hotel is still on their Covid protocols, this will work. My husband and I have travelled a bit over the last couple of years and in all hotel stays, we had to explicitly ask for maid service. In many of the hotels, if we didn't want the service, they wouldn't come in until we checked out, even when we stayed a full week.
 
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DynamicDepression

Deranged
Mar 28, 2022
352
I wish I could CTB peacefully in a hospital, surrounded by my loved ones.
 
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NobodyKnowsMe

NobodyKnowsMe

Just biding my time
Dec 21, 2021
582
Not sure about "where" yet. It is complicated, to be sure. While one part of me prefers N or SN, for the mostly 'peaceful' of it, the timing and required prep to prevent puking, adds complexity. If it weren't for the risk to others, I'd got for H2S for sure -- much faster and as long as I got the amount right, it is pretty much a sure thing.

While home would definitely be the most comfortable, if I were to do it there I'd have to time it very carefully. I'd need to do it when my husband takes one of his solo trips out to see his son or one of his buddies in another state. However, since I have cats that I do not want to suffer -- i.e. feedings -- I'd need to time it so that I died no more than 12-18 hours before he got back home.

If I didn't do it at home, I'm not sure. The only times that I leave the house without him are for short errands (grocery store, hair stylist, dentist/doctor) or when I fly out of state to visit my mom, which I typically do twice a year. I couldn't charge a hotel on the credit card because he would see the charge. Though I could possibly put it on the one card that we currently only use for prescriptions -- he doesn't get notifications on that one.
 
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Midnight-rain

Student
Jan 1, 2020
191
I'd love to ctb at home in my room, but I fear getting interrupted by my family. I also don't want to leave a mess in there. So my next best option is to drive to the middle of nowhere and shoot myself.
 
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Dysgenic Pup

Dysgenic Pup

A canine that’s not so heavenly.
Sep 18, 2021
435
I would drive somewhere beautiful, then do it either inside the car or somewhere outside if I'm feeling brave.
 
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Dear Agony

Dear Agony

The Void
Jan 24, 2020
296
I've considered a hotel, but I'd much rather do it in nature where we all come from and one day have to go back to it, it's simply the cycle of life. Plus my countries has a lot of forests and a tree would be the ideal for my method.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,030
Are there any large enough "hooies" out there anywhere I could crawl into? I would choose that.
 
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RN12

RN12

Student
Jul 25, 2021
180
My friend unfortunately owns the flat I'm renting so I couldn't CTB at my flat for the respect of my friend. I've booked a hotel instead.
Sorry maybe a stupid question. But just curious, what will happen with the flat afterwards in such situation?
 
RagingCat

RagingCat

😾
May 2, 2022
32
Somewhere in the woods, to go on the last adventure, walk around a bit and die "peacefully" in the middle of nowhere, where people don't wonder.
 
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clown_17

clown_17

Almost gone, it almost worked
Oct 24, 2020
288
Somewhere deep in the woods. The ideal place for me is somewhere deep in the trees where I can walk for at least an hour without finding civilization on all sides. Then I take my SN. Regardless of how fast I run or crawl, no amount of SI will be able to make me reach for help. Itd also be peaceful dying in a forest.
 
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Intelligent_Panic99

Intelligent_Panic99

Student
Jan 4, 2022
114
I'd rather do it outside somewhere remote, but I am doing it in a hotel in a very large city, in large hotel where I don't think it will have as big of an impact on the hotel. I'd like it to be NYC but I can't risk taking N on the plane and I live too far to drive there so this city will have to do.
I am not doing it outside because we have a lot of animals here and I know this sounds gross, but I would prefer not be found after being eaten by them. (I feel like that would happen.) I want to be found just looking like I am asleep to keep the shock to a minimum for whoever finds me.
 
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ShepherdOfMyself

ShepherdOfMyself

Member
Apr 23, 2022
24
My girlfriend wants to do a national park. I'm definitely up for this, although I feel the risk of getting caught- and leaving behind our items to infest the natural beauty- makes it preferable to do it in our home. We'll figure it out once we get closer.
 
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NotSureToEndure

NotSureToEndure

Professor of not a lot
Aug 17, 2020
114
Hotel seems the most efficient option. To me.

I like idea of a nice private airbnb, in a relaxing setting but I think I would feel guilty for the owner.

Home is no good as don't want to taint it.

Out in car is too risky for passers by.

Out in nature would be nice but there are risks that you could be found in the middle of the act or resuscitated before dying.
 
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Orange010

Member
May 1, 2022
20
Ideally, somewhere with a cliff and ocean. So my body can be taken by the ocean and hopefully decompose without people finding it. A woody forest isn't bad either.

A car would be nice but I don't own one. Same with my own apartment
 
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pikku.tiikeri

pikku.tiikeri

Member
Apr 17, 2022
94
I prefer a secluded place surrounded by nature where I would not be disturbed during the act or "saved" by strangers.
 
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sppplmgwiwlkiwbtft

sppplmgwiwlkiwbtft

you see it too. for me, it's always like this.
Jun 15, 2023
59
ending it in my apartment. I would have the chance to say goodbye to my loved ones. Leaving in my own bed.
Fully agree. While I know that it's kinda cruel to my family who'll find me, I just want to leave in peace, in a place I feel most comfortable at. Like that I'll have a chance to say goodbye to everyone I care about and my final moments will be spent in a room that I love
 
alonely

alonely

exists by being merely labeled
Jul 1, 2023
470
Isolated in a forest or something, far away from any people
 

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