Discussion Recorded SN CTB protocol

[angelkissed]

Hello everypony

I'm considering having a long-time respected member who is incredibly informative help document the effects of me taking SN when I "CTB".

Any volunteers that fit the desc. for this would be appreciated. If this is simply for morbid curiosity or because you're some disgusting "gore" watcher and get off on watching another person die, then please leave me alone. You're the last person I want to see me be alive in my final moments.

I want a human who is empathetic and understands how this can inform people to make a safer and more peaceful informed decision and to document SN death closely. No human deserves to have a terrifying or painful death when they're already suffering. I cannot stress enough that this is truly not to encourage anyone to follow my footsteps. Please don't. I still don't know if this is immoral or not.

This is not in any way to encourage others to follow in my footsteps. I would feel awful if my process convinces someone out there to take their own life

This should be happening in around 2 months. No set date yet.

I'm specifically going to go off the peaceful pill guidebook's protocol, however there will be one singular difference as the benzos listed and encouraged to take, are not accessible online nor in person so I may have to experiment with Oxy's or Xanax and figure out the dosage.

I have never done pills before so I will need whoever is documenting this to help me in the process.


This is not something I want recorded at all. I want the person to help document the before process, during process, and after "ctb" process in timestamps while everything is happening.

In 2020 there was a thread for @Moonicide which a dear friend of hers documented everything. In the same format, I'd need it to be formatted the *exact* same way. I hope this is making sense.

However in the thread, her last words she ended up softly uttering "fuck, fuck, fuck" and there is no way to verify what she was feeling at that moment.

i hope i can maybe offer more insight. And I know i will be scared, and i don't want to back out. So having someone to call for my final moments will put my fear of dying alone at ease.

I would like this person to be someone I can form a semi bond with and feel safe around.

Please comment if you are interested.

 

[hdead]

I'd be happy to have a conversation with you about this. Not saying I will do this, but as somebody who is also considering SN and heavily invested in dignity in passing I consider this.

 

[peacebenow]

This could potential lead to legal issues.

 

[Tyra]

You've all been brainwashed to think CTB is bad by society. Because if CTB was seen as neutral, then society wouldn't have as many wageslaves.

It's kind of annoying me how much I see "don't do what I did" on a literal suicide forum.

Like do y'all not realize we're going to do it anyways… regardless of what you say.

It's like why gatekeep when it can make things easier for someone who's inevitably going to do it?

Sorry if this came off as aggressive… I didn't mean it like that.

I'm just saying there's a time and place for pro recovery stuff and I don't wanna see it when I'm trying to get informed on methods.

 

[hdead]

This could potential lead to legal issues.

Fuck that. I'll just pop my shit once the legal letter hits the mailbox. :')