Discussion Reasons I’m staying alive(May 2026)

[SoCloseSoFar]

I figured it might be therapeutic to list the few reasons I have for living as of now. Hope the flame of these reasons never dies out or there gon be some consequences.
1,)My surgery was a success and I have a vagina now, seriously, 14 days away from my 1 year anniversary!!!
2.) I love my job, genuinely. Sure being a stripper may not be glamorous but the girls are all so nice and we support each other at my club, I'd consider them family. I love my job.
3.) I just got accepted into college! If the stress doesn't kill me, hopefully I'll be a band teacher someday!
4,) My cat, Mona. She's a tuxedo and only 2 but I love her to death, my bonafide monafide(that's a reference, iykyk)
5.) Spider-Man Brand New Day comes out in July. If anything to live for, as a die-hard Spidey fan with over 80 different funko pops of the wallcrawler and a tattoo of Spider-Man, that is one reason to hold in just a little longer.

What are your reasons? If you have any, I'd love to hear them

 

[wine is fine but]

I figured it might be therapeutic to list the few reasons I have for living as of now. Hope the flame of these reasons never dies out or there gon be some consequences.
1,)My surgery was a success and I have a vagina now, seriously, 14 days away from my 1 year anniversary!!!
2.) I love my job, genuinely. Sure being a stripper may not be glamorous but the girls are all so nice and we support each other at my club, I'd consider them family. I love my job.
3.) I just got accepted into college! If the stress doesn't kill me, hopefully I'll be a band teacher someday!
4,) My cat, Mona. She's a tuxedo and only 2 but I love her to death, my bonafide monafide(that's a reference, iykyk)
5.) Spider-Man Brand New Day comes out in July. If anything to live for, as a die-hard Spidey fan with over 80 different funko pops of the wallcrawler and a tattoo of Spider-Man, that is one reason to hold in just a little longer.

What are your reasons? If you have any, I'd love to hear them

that is fantastic to hear
i hope you have this much zest for life for many years to come
congratulations on your surgery and everything else that has been positive lately

 

[SoCloseSoFar]

that is fantastic to hear
i hope you have tis much zest for life for many years to come
congratulations on your surgery and everything else that has been positive lately

Thank you! There's a lotta shit too, don't get me wrong but I like to think if you don't stop to think of at least 5 positives every now and then, those negatives tend to feel worse. And if I managed to go through fucking bottom surgery, maybe anything is possible… maybe. I still don't know and am deeply depressed and suicidal but a win is a win

 

[Forveleth]

Wow! That all sounds amazing. I am genuinely happy for you. Can you do pole dancing stuff? I have always wanted to take pole dancing lessons.

Despite wanting to end my life and for some reason I can not explain, I decided to take on a massive gardening project. My landlord has let the yard fall into a very sorry state so I am fixing it. I picked out some nice flowers and, if the weather holds, should be planting some time this week.

 

[Aflame5926]

really congratz man

but i think you are the wrong side of the forum for reason to life.
recovery would be the better side of this.

be PROUD on where you are and what you archived through

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm stuck here while my Dad is still alive.

In truth, I don't feel there are many positives to me staying alive. Most of what's ahead is stuff I'm dreading. Hence- why I want out.

That said, I'm toying with the idea of buying a new console in order to play the early release of Subnautica 2. I love that game. Really though- I shouldn't. There's so much stuff workwise and domestic wise I need to do. But then, I spend so much time procrastinating too.

I am enjoying the warmer weather to an extent. I do like feeling warm enough to wear t shirts and not layers and layers of clothing. I appreciate a beautiful blue sky.

Sorry- probably not entirely the upbeat response you were hoping for. I would also recommend posting this in recovery to- in the hopes of getting more positive responses.

I'm happy for you though. It does sound like there are some positive things coming together in your life. I hope that continues.