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deadalreadysqc

deadalreadysqc

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Does anyone else feel guilty when thinking about how their mom and other relatives feel after they find out you're gone? I think it's what's stopping me right now and I don't know how to get past it
 
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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
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Welcome, awesome avatar.

My mom never wanted me & made me regret being born. I punched her in the face & wish to take her to hell with me.

Good for you if your mom isn't a piece of shit... But if she fails to protect you so much that you want to die... Meh... She can cry.

What happened to you?
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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The way that I see it, how people would react if I was to die could never be my concern as I simply won't be there at that point. The non existent are incapable of caring about anything as one needs a consciousness to have thoughts and feelings. Eventually we will all die and be forgotten about anyway, it's our inevitable fate as humans.
 
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SunshineAndSuicide

SunshineAndSuicide

Sunshine is what's keeping me alive
Aug 24, 2022
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That is also a reason for me. Even though my parents played a big part in my trauma, I still feel bad to think about the terrible pain they would feel. I know they would forever blame themselves and probably hurt for many years.
I guess one way to get past it is to decide if you want to live in pain, just to spare them...
 
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kiuya

kiuya

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Nov 16, 2021
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I'm on the same boat. The only thing still keeping here are my parents. I love them so dearly.
 
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AnxietyHangover

AnxietyHangover

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Aug 20, 2022
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Does anyone else feel guilty when thinking about how their mom and other relatives feel after they find out you're gone? I think it's what's stopping me right now and I don't know how to get past it

I'm on the same boat. The only thing still keeping here are my parents. I love them so dearly.
Same, I feel for my parents when they'll discover my decrepit corpse, I hope they find the strength to carry on through my younger brother, but "living" this life doesn't feel like living anyway.
 
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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
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That is also a reason for me. Even though my parents played a big part in my trauma, I still feel bad to think about the terrible pain they would feel. I know they would forever blame themselves and probably hurt for many years.
I guess one way to get past it is to decide if you want to live in pain, just to spare them...
If they gave you trauma, no need to spare them
I'm on the same boat. The only thing still keeping here are my parents. I love them so dearly.
Wow awesome avatar. I hope your parents love you back. And don't pressure you to be a perfect dead doll
Same, I feel for my parents when they'll discover my decrepit corpse, I hope they find the strength to carry on through my younger brother, but "living" this life doesn't feel like living anyway.
I wish my mom found my decrepit corpse. In her bed. Full of worms. 😆 I look like her it'd be an extra shock.
 
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mychoice777

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I've had a chronic illness for 25 yrs. I finally had "the talk" with one of my family members to let them know when I've had enough, I will be leaving this earth by my own volition. It took a lot to have this conversation and it was hard but one I thought was necessary. I feel sad sometimes thinking about how they will feel when/if this happens.................but do I feel guilty? Absolutely not. They havn't been in my shoes.
 
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VKVK

VKVK

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The only reason I haven't done it still is because of my mom too so I don't know what to tell you. Despite playing a huge role in how I turned out (and find myself unable to change) it wasn't all her fault and now she'd be the only one to go through the mourning alone because there's no one else that really cares about me. She's pretty religious and does have people around her and my brother and her part of the family too so I suppose she could theoretically endure it, I just don't want to put her through the pain. But like this person said -

I guess one way to get past it is to decide if you want to live in pain, just to spare them...
I'm considering this, at least til she dies, but I don't know if I can endure the pain that long honestly. I can barely get through the day nowadays.
 
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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
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I've had a chronic illness for 25 yrs. I finally had "the talk" with one of my family members to let them know when I've had enough, I will be leaving this earth by my own volition. It took a lot to have this conversation and it was hard but one I thought was necessary. I feel sad sometimes thinking about how they will feel when/if this happens.................but do I feel guilty? Absolutely not. They havn't been in my shoes.
I admire your resolve. Been in pain too... Can't take it anymore. What's your method?
 
theboy

theboy

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me too
it hurts me to leave them
 
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