Ready to do it.

[real]

Hello everyone. I'm a new member, though I've been lurking here without an account for a while. I tried posting a post earlier, but it was too long, so I'm gonna keep this short. I'm 18 years old, with loving parents and a very privileged life. I was sent to great private schools for all my life and had great hopes for my future and life in general. I was bullied as a child to some extent because I was small, but it never bothered me that much. Recently, the mistakes of my parents caught up to me. My mom had 2 kids, me and my sister. I think my mom married my dad entirely for the money, but idk and idc at this point. When my mom was pregnant with my older sister, she took great care of her body and gave birth to a perfect child. Because of her inhumane animal desires she got pregnant again with me right after, with her weak body from the previous pregnancy. She gave birth to me underweight and very small. I was small all my life. I now stand 5'5 and without going into too much detail I'll never be able to live a normal life. See I'm the shortest one in my entire bloodline, my sister is 5 inches taller than me. I was fucked from the start. I watch on a daily basis people from similar households live the life I wanted. I believe because of my immature parents who didn't take care of me, check up on me, take me to the doctors, I'll never have a normal life, I'll never be able to be intimate with somebody. I am going to miss out on all of life because of irreversible things. Every problem with me is entirely physical with no way of changing it. I don't want to live like that. I don't wanna look from the outside while everyone around me is living the life I could only wish for. I've been diagnosed with so much stuff the last year, and I feel like this is it for me. I will acquire a gun and take my own life. I was sabotaged from the start and I can't go on. I need it all to stop and I hate my parents for their lack of judgement. They shouldn't have given birth to me. I hate it all. I don't know the point of this thread, but suicide seems like the only route right now.

 

[Letgo]

I am sorry for all the pain. Are all the diagnosis been correct? Have you seen your health declining?

 

[real]

I am sorry for all the pain. Are all the diagnosis been correct? Have you seen your health declining?

yeah, the diagnosis are true. I got many problems which will disallow me to live a normal life. I won't go into too much detail but my life has been so miserable and the fact that it's because of physical reasons that can't be changed kill me inside.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so sad to me how people so cruelly and selfishly continue to procreate, they are just creating unnecessary suffering that never needed to exist. But anyway I wish you the best, it's truly so horrible how in this world people suffer all through no fault of their own.

 

[Letgo]

I am so sorry to hear that. Are any of those health issues terminal? Or will they just prevent you from having a normal life without killing you?

 

[Bobert_Beniro]

I understand what you're talking about. I had a friend who was born unhealthy, she has many physical abnormalities and small stature, now she has to live with this, simply because the pregnancy went badly. Small people are so unhappy and I understand them, living the life of a dwarf in a world of tall people is very depressing

 

[Pengu]

I understand what you're talking about. I had a friend who was born unhealthy, she has many physical abnormalities and small stature, now she has to live with this, simply because the pregnancy went badly. Small people are so unhappy and I understand them, living the life of a dwarf in a world of tall people is very depressing

i am 5'3 T^T

 

[GasMonkey]

Are you a guy?
If you are a 5'5" guy and your sister is 5'10" then that's fucking brutal for sure.