Ready to CBT but family keep getting in the way

[counting-out-time]

Hi all. Need your help with my dilemma. So recently I've had some bad news where I've lost half my family, lost my job, lost my friends and lost my interests. I really really really want to get a hotel soon to CBT but one half of my family who keep nagging me tell me to stay strong and carry on as normal. They do not understand what I'm going through with the fact I have fuck all left. Just a shitty old bike with two flat tyres as the council recently cut the hedges on the canal path. Lost air in both tyres and had to walk the rest of the way which was 12 miles. Surely they could of picked up the mess but no they wanted cyclists to get into shit and make everything worse! My question is although you have a plan to CBT and you know it will work through planning, how do you get rid of the voices that keep saying don't do it and if you kill your self then we will be disappointed. I cannot say to people oh yes I'm going to die now cause all I'll get is ah no you will destroy me and everyone that cares about you. I never asked to be born but I ask that I can die but life is not fair!

What if we begged to be born into this world but if we wanted to die then there was a machine that you had to put £1 in and walk in, then you die. That would be awesome. Just how to pass without causing people shit?

 

[Nikki2020]

i wish i could give you a big hug. :( i don't have any easy answers. leaving is hard.

 

[counting-out-time]

i wish i could give you a big hug. :( i don't have any easy answers. leaving is hard.

Tell me about it :( I'll be okay I'm planning on leaving soon so all this pain and mystery will cease to exist. Are you from uk btw? If so then can I ask about any info on sn if you know anything? That was my plan b but I'm finding it impossible to get hold of

 

[Nikki2020]

Tell me about it :( I'll be okay I'm planning on leaving soon so all this pain and mystery will cease to exist. Are you from uk btw? If so then can I ask about any info on sn if you know anything? That was my plan b but I'm finding it impossible to get hold of

I'm in Canada. I'm going to send you a pm. ❤

 

[FuneralCry]

I just think that only you know when the time is right for you to leave, it's a feeling that you have, you cannot really force yourself. But in regards to people who are left behind the way that I see it, is that whatever happens in this world after I die could never be my concern as I would simply not be there to see it. One would need a consciousness to be able care about anything. As humans we only exist just to die and be forgotten anyway, it's our inevitable fate.

But it does sound like a difficult situation to be in. I believe that nobody should be guilt tripped and feel as though they are forced to stay here against their wishes, it's a personal decision when to leave.

 

[counting-out-time]

Thank you