Discussion rate my life situation

[gamingforever9]

left college
chronic incurable illness
no quality of life whatsoever
living off my parents
siblings and parents slowly starting to hate me
isolation from society for nearly 4 years
basically I am leech
zero work experience
unemployed
can't work with this health problems
almost 24

I rate 0/10, zero future
best option to ctb just to ease my pain and burden to others

tell me what you think!

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

69/100

U don't have homework
Free food
No boss
Old enough to buy alcohol and guns
Related to vampires
Good chance of becoming a cyborg

 

[BunBun]

7/10
-3 for lying in your username
CTB means you are NOT gaming forever

 

[RazzleDazzle]

The incurable illness with no quality of life thing is hard. There are reddit groups, discord channels, and Facebook groups for various illnesses. Which doesn't really change the reality of living with it, but they can be helpful for finding out about new and different treatment options, and at least not feeling so fucking alone

I don't know what you're dealing with, but I've had chronic health stuff that has really floored me and fucked up my life and kept me from working for long periods of time. It's really scary and hard, and doctors can be pretty useless even if they're trying to help. I know the health condition I'm dealing with has a high rate of suicide and a terrible quality of life. But there are also treatment options out there that are not super well known or super obvious.

I send you hugs. I am sorry you are going through this. Your suffering is real and I see you.

 

[cagedSage]

Based on what you said, your own assessment seems accurate. Please don't misunderstand I'm not trying to be cruel, I just feel I wouldn't want people to deflect with humor since this clearly feels like an escapable dead end to you. I also don't know if you would like advice ,but I probably would be the wrong person to give any.

All I would like to say is , I do not agree you have 0 future, at most your future is bleak for the day of tomorrow

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

left college
chronic incurable illness
no quality of life whatsoever
living off my parents
siblings and parents slowly starting to hate me
isolation from society for nearly 4 years
basically I am leech
zero work experience
unemployed
can't work with this health problems
almost 24

I rate 0/10, zero future
best option to ctb just to ease my pain and burden to others

tell me what you think!

Hopefully, considering you have no income, you're eligible for some sort of state sponsored mental health services. I know it feels like there's nothing you can do about a terrible situation, and it's not fair that it's happening so young, but having a professional or a group to talk to would be helpful.

I also find it helpful to have others in a similar situation to talk to. They'll understand way more than your family and just a sense of not being alone with genuine empathy/lived experience can help a lot.

We have no clue on the details of your situation, whether it's progressive/terminal or what exactly your limitations are. I know what it's like to have a disability. It's not fair and there are things I'll never get to experience that I wish I could, and I always have a degree of anxiety hanging over my head because of having to manage it.

In some ways, your life is what you make of it. Accepting that your experience is going to be different could help. Also, I imagine a huge stressor is your familial relationships because they're the ones financially supporting you. Can you get more state funding? Can you find an odd or creative side hobby to monetize? Can you go to therapy with them to work out how to work together moving forward and improve communication?

You're in a tough spot and honestly killing yourself might make sense to you. But it doesn't hurt to get some peer support first so you at least feel understood and validated. I hope you find something that gives you a bit of reprieve.

Also, calling yourself a leech doesn't help anything. Try to practice self compassion and talk to yourself as you would a friend, not someone you hate lol. I genuinely find gratitude lists to help me when I'm severely depressed.