(Rant) someone please talk to me

[everlastinghistory]

She deleted our last form of communication. I'm never gonna talk to her again. It's not fair. I love her so fucking much I just wanna be able to talk to her again. I hate this. I hate it so fucking much. I want her back. I want to talk to her again. I don't care if things will never be how I wish they were I just wanna talk to her. That's it. Just talk to her. It's not fair. I don't know what to do I just wanna talk to her again and I never can. It's literally hopeless. She's never coming back. Nothings ever gonna be okay again. I want her back. I'd do anything. Literally anything. It's not fair. I never meant to hurt her or anything I just want her back. I don't know what to do. I really don't. I just wanna be able to talk to her even just to tell her I love her one last time. It's not fair. Man it's not fair. I don't get it. I don't get this is happening. I love her so much. I'd do anything to fix this but she won't be believe me and man it hurts so much. I just want to believe me and give me a chance to prove I mean it. I don't what to do. I really don't. I can't live without her. I can't. I know I can't. I want her back. Please I just want her back. I know there's nothing anyone here can do but honestly there's a part of hoping that since I accidentally sent her my @ her she may have found my account and may see this. I know she more than likely never even knew what site it was. But man it just- I hate this more than anything. I want her back. I wanna talk to her again. I want things to be okay again. I wanna stop feeling like this. I just wanna be happy the way I always was with her again but I never will cause she never wants to talk to me again.

 

[murmur]

This might not be the relief you want but I'd say give it some patience and try to be aware that putting your whole hearted faith in others, even those you truly love and trust, unfortunately leads to disappointment and heart break most often then not. It doesnt warrant one to stop caring for others, not that it can simply be switched on and off like that but, theres lots of things to lose yourself in or be impassioned by while not making life more tedious than it already is. having company that you enjoy is best a plus then an absolute need. Sorry if it comes off cold but I do hope it helps somehow

 

[LoiteringClouds]

I know I can never substitute her, but...
I'll try to make your pain less unbearable, I'll bust a gut.
I wouldn't say you'll overcome this ordeal, as some people actually CTB after that.
I wouldn't call it a breakup either, as I don't know her. I'm here no matter what.

Please talk anything you want to here, your well-being is important.
But I can't imagine how much you miss her. You sound hopeless and sadly I feel it's really hopeless...

 

[TapeMachine]

Oh man, this is breaking my heart...fuck. I know this kind of pain intimately, and I am so so very sorry that you're hurting so deeply right now.

 

[novem]

man you don't need to talk to particularly her. you will soon find someone else who will appreciate you more. she has made her choice in favour of someone/tning else, it takes time to get over it but it happens to EVERYBODY on this planet

 

[NightshadeDreamer]

That sounds really painful, sorry to hear you're going through all this. I hope things get better for you. It sounds like this has really affected you badly which is totally understandable. But I really hope you know that we care here and there's support for you.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be so awful and painful what you are going through, to me it truly is so horrible how existing can very easily just get worse, life really is just too cruel.

 

[EmpathyMinded]

She deleted our last form of communication. I'm never gonna talk to her again. It's not fair. I love her so fucking much I just wanna be able to talk to her again. I hate this. I hate it so fucking much. I want her back. I want to talk to her again. I don't care if things will never be how I wish they were I just wanna talk to her. That's it. Just talk to her. It's not fair. I don't know what to do I just wanna talk to her again and I never can. It's literally hopeless. She's never coming back. Nothings ever gonna be okay again. I want her back. I'd do anything. Literally anything. It's not fair. I never meant to hurt her or anything I just want her back. I don't know what to do. I really don't. I just wanna be able to talk to her even just to tell her I love her one last time. It's not fair. Man it's not fair. I don't get it. I don't get this is happening. I love her so much. I'd do anything to fix this but she won't be believe me and man it hurts so much. I just want to believe me and give me a chance to prove I mean it. I don't what to do. I really don't. I can't live without her. I can't. I know I can't. I want her back. Please I just want her back. I know there's nothing anyone here can do but honestly there's a part of hoping that since I accidentally sent her my @ her she may have found my account and may see this. I know she more than likely never even knew what site it was. But man it just- I hate this more than anything. I want her back. I wanna talk to her again. I want things to be okay again. I wanna stop feeling like this. I just wanna be happy the way I always was with her again but I never will cause she never wants to talk to me again.

I'm sorry you are struggling right now man. Breakups can be so fucking rough when your heart was in them.

I know this may seem shallow with everything you are feeling right now, but for what it's worth I think you will find someone new eventually. Not right now, take the time you need to deal with these feelings and give them the respect they deserve. But with some time, I'm confident you'll not only find something new, but better suited to you. You strike me as a passionate person and someone is going to fucking love that about you, even if you don't feel lovable right now.

For now, try to focus on the things that give you some peace of mind. If there are things you do that remind you too much of her, then maybe avoid those. If everything does, then maybe just the things where that feeling isn't as bad. Gove yourself those moments of calm away from the pain to clear your head. You deserve that. Figure things out as you go from there.

Just know regardless of this, you still have meaning even with her gone. You aren't worthless. Nobody gives that to you and nobody can ever take it from you. And if you need to vent more about this keep doing that. Whatever it takes that you need. I'm here for you in as much as you want that of me. You aren't a burden.