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release_me
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- Sep 18, 2023
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Another fight which I tried my best and sincerely to avert, but in vain. Again it all boiled down to my inability to earn enough. This is now becoming an everyday thing, a standing reminder of my inability. Every job I apply to, gets rejected, ofcourse am no top candidate. I cannot earn more, I just want to CTB rather getting reminded everyday and getting emasculated everyday. Why did I make the decisions I made ? Why did I choose ? Why was I allowed to continue as a fool ? Why didn't anyone stop me ? Why none helped ? Who is watching over me ? Is there anyone who really cares ? What is the point ? Oh God, please I beg you to end it or atleast be merciful to give me the courage to end it. Cannot endure. Just cannot. Please have mercy. How long will you keep quiet ? How long will you turn your face away from my sinful pathetic being ? How long must I suffer this wretched existence?