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Cyagangy

Cyagangy

Self Immolation fr fr
Apr 27, 2024
163
Cya here, for the past week I have been feeling good. Random spikes of hope and excitement. Feeling content and peaceful, never got help never got meds never got diagnosed or anything. I somehow went from feeling suicidal and like a prophet to being a regular guy. If I'm going to be honest, I kinda missed being stressed and terrified. I liked the edge, I dislike being bored and happy especially if I have nothing in truly excited about. Maybe it's a gift from God or my mind just wanted to give me some serotonin. It just feels odd to feel "normal". Have you guys ever had you mental stuff fixed suddenly?
 
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bluebook

bluebook

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Aug 23, 2025
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are you sure nothing in your life changed? Its possible that this isnt random at all, and you just havent figured out the reasons yet. But yes I have had this experience, although a bit different. It is very common to miss being miserable. My advice is try not to think about it too much and just enjoy the good times while they last, and be prepared for when they end.
 
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amerie

amerie

an earthworm sprinkled with salt
Oct 6, 2024
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Not everything needs to be diagnosed as a condition or a disorder, I hate how people make mental illness (especially for women) seem irrational when it could likely just be your body rejecting years of social abuse and neglect. Perhaps you escaped and finally got better because you prioritized your health and left all those toxic ass people and environments.

I only developed depression as a teenager because of people rejecting and excluding me constantly, my disorder is not irrational. I live in a world that wasn't made for me so of course im going to be depressed and coping.
are you sure nothing in your life changed? Its possible that this isnt random at all, and you just havent figured out the reasons yet. But yes I have had this experience, although a bit different. It is very common to miss being miserable. My advice is try not to think about it too much and just enjoy the good times while they last, and be prepared for when they end.
Don't let nostalgia fool you!! The peace from mental stability is always better than the emptiness and pain of depression and being suicidal.

Get hobbies and find a greater purpose. Find new friends and do risky shit. Is there a dream you have? Do it bro. Fuck being realistic. Live life to the fullest.
 
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Cyagangy

Cyagangy

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Apr 27, 2024
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are you sure nothing in your life changed? Its possible that this isnt random at all, and you just havent figured out the reasons yet. But yes I have had this experience, although a bit different. It is very common to miss being miserable. My advice is try not to think about it too much and just enjoy the good times while they last, and be prepared for when they end.
Okay then, will definitely do!
Not everything needs to be diagnosed as a condition or a disorder, I hate how people make mental illness (especially for women) seem irrational when it could likely just be your body rejecting years of social abuse and neglect. Perhaps you escaped and finally got better because you prioritized your health and left all those toxic ass people and environments.

I only developed depression as a teenager because of people rejecting and excluding me constantly, my disorder is not irrational. I live in a world that wasn't made for me so of course im going to be depressed and coping.

Don't let nostalgia fool you!! The peace from mental stability is always better than the emptiness and pain of depression and being suicidal.

Get hobbies and find a greater purpose. Find new friends and do risky shit. Is there a dream you have? Do it bro. Fuck being realistic. Live life to the fullest.
That might just be the case, I don't know exactly what I wanna do hobby wise cuz I just started community but I will find some way to enjoy this.
 

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