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CygnusBlack

CygnusBlack

Perpetually Tired
Oct 18, 2019
2
Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel so sad all of a sudden? I mean I was fine a few moments ago then suddenly I just feel like my chest is being squeezed and I feel like crying and and I don't even know why I'm still here? Why do I keep on waking up? Why did I exist? I'm surrounded by people, yet I feel so alone. I can't share them my random thoughts of suicide because I know they will judge because they just CAN'T understand. Even I don't understand myself. I don't have any traumatic experience that I can remember. I live a fairly normal life. Maybe a bit 8 stressed at school but I think it's normal. Is this cowardice of facing my problems? Am I weak? Am I selfish? I'm not even making any sense. I can't explain well. My thoughts are random bursts of ideas that don't connect well. I'm sorry for this randomness. I just want to vent. Sorry.
 
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JimFord99

JimFord99

Enlightened
Aug 18, 2019
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Hm, maybe you suffer from depression? Quite common symptoms. Are you under a stressful situation? Maybe this is the cause of your feelings.
 
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mediocre

trapped here
Nov 9, 2019
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You're not weak nor selfish. Sadness, depression, anxiety can show up for no apparent reason at anytime and last for any length of time. You don't need to have suffered a traumatic experience. Sometimes every day life can just wear you down without realising it. I've suffered severe depression and anxiety for 15 years and I still have no idea how to get out of it. I don't know if there is a way out for me. Not to say you're in the same situation. It could possibly be a temporary period of feeling down that you're going through and things will pick up again. If you need to talk I'm always here.
 

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