Ran out of time

[lifeisactualtorture]

I am not able to obtain what is needed for the preferred peaceful method and I have run out of time. I can drive but not walk so what are my options to do it quick given my limitations ? This is not a quick decision, it has been 30 years since my first failed attempt and to date my biggest regret in life. It has been a horrifying journey here and now things have gotten completely out of hand in my life and through no fault of my own. I just keep having failed attempts regardless of what I felt was fail - proof parts in play. Please help, I beg of you! I just wanted a painless quick (as much as it can be) way. I live in severe pain so I don't think I can deal with a higher level than where I live (pain level). I do have a wheelchair but obviously there's only so many landscapes I can go over but I'm just laying out what I'm working with so I can get the best help from you guys (which by the way I think all of you are brilliant given the equations, algorithms, compassion in which you treat others despite your own pain).

 

[Kalista]

message me when you unlock private messaging by increasing your post count

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered so unbearably for so long, it truly is such an incredibly cruel existence where there's all this pain but anyway I hope that you eventually find what you search for, best wishes. I personally really just wish there's a straightforward way to just be permanently free from this existence, I find it so painful how despite all the suffering this existence causes suicide is so unnecessarily difficult.

 

[lifeisactualtorture]

Ok so how much pure perc would it take if taken with only a few Xanax (if that would help anything)?