I sniffed 4 grams a week. I'm already years a smoker.
My friends did an intervention yesterday. They made me throw away the drugs and made me tell my parents, who are shocked. I never felt so low in my life.
I don't know how to get trough today, let alone the rest of the week or the period i have to survive until they take me in the psychiatric hospital. Which could take some more weeks.
Cocaine was coping. I looked forward to the moments I could use it and not feel depressed. I lost that now and can't cope anymore.
ב''ה,
Given the state of health care and the world today, honestly I've mentioned the two things that are going to have any similarity. Without opining hard enough that the world breaks because
other "stimulants" appeal to so much of the tech set, if blow was your thing, Ritalin or bupropion may suffice and the other stimulants.. have a short honeymoon period before every awful side effect kicks in and the hell jokes start, so I'll be the voice that says it's okay to prefer reuptake inhibitors, professionals call this "ADHD brain" whether it is or not, and if you don't go beyond those, I hate to say it's practically just a song and dance of 'switching dealers' (to ones that did pass med school supposedly but meet them and you may wonder about that).
I would really recommend sticking with those if you're going in hospital and going to be offered the medication smorgasbord and have had this preference. SSRIs are 'just SSRIs' and I'm going to say not going to specifically be a bad trip. My theory is that when reuptake inhibitor preferring brains get handed the amphetamine-type drugs we get into real problems worse than our existing ones. So going in knowing your brain skews to a Ritalin or bupropion type of treatment will be a better ride than getting all tweaked out until you haven't slept in a week, are screaming malpractice and become amphetamine psychosis billing for them.
Not heavily experienced but, like cigarettes where the worst of it is really over in 2 days, if you're abstaining meanwhile, grit your teeth for 24 hours, the next 24 hours, then you're mostly out of the woods and can say you're past acute withdrawal symptoms and more towards experiencing whatever your baseline is by the end of a week, 2 to effectively know what "clean" feels like.
Hope this brings some perspective, it can either be 'an inconvenience' with some psych meds practically doing the same thing in the end, or it can be Mr. Toad's Wild Ride that never ends if you let them promote the amphetamine door and then get into the pharmacy shortages etc. that keep pushing people into Breaking Bad world. Look at it in terms of what you know you function with, since everyone is just out to get your labor whatever you're on, and they don't really care if that means a career doing career stuff or filling a bed because you're seeing robots after amphetamines didn't sit well because your brain does better with the reuptake inhibitor type of meds.
Not that it isn't worth raw-dogging reality to compare, but again as far as theories, people who have the brain chemistry for the possibly milder (don't let the slower onset of the other style fool you) reuptake inhibitor psychostimulants/antidepressants seem to get into/have more trouble with the other type than even 'average.' Not least because if you ever overdo it at least it's still over in a day instead of a week or more with 'the wrong stuff.' For this brain type or style, if you want to be charitable and avoid conflict in a world where it seems like most med students have preferred the other and been the types to not completely lose their minds with it.
Yes I am personally grumpy for having 'chosen the wrong door' at medical encouragement, so just hope this eases anyone else's ride. If you're tolerant of booger sugar the time release versions of Ritalin probably won't feel too bad, while for me that blows my heart up and I'm better off with the IR style, as for a hot minute was frowned on for being more 'drug-like' and closer to being off-patent.
It's a stupid game so if you can get by with nothing, consider not needing prescriptions, while if you can't this is probably what's going to be most comfortably equivalent without giving new problems.
Somehow I get endless cyber pranks for having done okay with bupropion. There's relatively slight differences, bupropion may substitute for cigarettes better, more seizure risk if you overdo it but so does coke proper have and if you tolerate that probably no thing, and Ritalin is slightly more go-go-go, but compared to other meds sending you to a universe you may not want I'll say these are the reasonable options and 50% of healthcare is not shy of prescribing them.
ב''ה,
Not in a position to edit anything, so "2 weeks to effectively know what 'clean' feels like," but hair tests exist so, just a fact of life there.
The other dumb fact of life is that if a social person or "less suburban" that lifestyle may run into the booger sugar in bars or from classmates first, while different background or any other health problems may have been fed the "ADD meds" first. While there was some acknowledgement these were basically the same things once kids started doing the dab dance and watching Breaking Bad, the business needs of both competing establishments sure keep the world stupid and bad to live in.
In a world where Breaking Bad exists and bath salts were OTC for a decade, possibly this stuff of both flavors should just be a carding next to the Sudafed. It's dumb. Also questionable how much in life is worth perseverating for in the ways these meds induce but sometimes it's nice to get out of bed except for the "labor market."
I hope you are not being too hard on yourself.
