Help quiet way to ctb without being found? (limited option)

[melonrazor]

for context: i've lived in singapore for almost 20y with my family. none of my family are citizens, they are all under work pass.
i was diagnosed with depression and ptsd after attempting in 2016/2017, i've been getting treatment for about 7 years now. i always had an issue with attendance and i have to write a debarment appeal letter every term so i can sit for the exams. i finished my foundation studies this year and i managed to pass all my subjects but my attendance is too low to apply for a degree program. (they have a requirement for international students and can't write appeal letters anymore) so now that my visa is expiring i have to go back to my hometown that's is in a warzone. - the military will force u to enlist otherwise u go to jail

i kind of see this as an opportunity to finally ctb. there were a few times i attempted but i was taken to the ER. but now that i'm going back to my 3rd world country to live with my relatives, i need to know if hanging in the woods is a good idea because I DO NOT WANT TO BE FOUND.
or should i wait until i get shot and killed by the military ppl ??

 

[SecretDissociation]

A person will always eventually be found in the Woods. I wouldn't recommend the woods in that case. I've thought about it and just hanging in the woods but you've hikers, animals, especially animals, they'll mess with your carcass and may make it easier to find you if your limb is randomly found. and your family may put a search warrant out.

Is there no way you can claim asylum in Singapore? Does it not have a indefinite stay period if you have lived there for a long time?

I'm not sure about counting on being shot when going into the military. Worse could happen like rape, torture, POW stuff. You could lose limbs, you could get shot and end up a vegetable or paraplegic etc. Also, would you actually be drafted to war? It sounds like you have the ability to build a case of mental instability. In the UK anyway and some countries you wouldn't be able to be drafted into war if you aren't fit to sit.