b1ackstar
manifesting my downfall :D
- Sep 16, 2023
- 25
what's a quick, painless way to go? i don't want to be thinking about it too much. i've tried to recover but shits hit the fan and it's really bad this time. money is an issue since i'm pretty broke so preferable something under £60 BUT if that's not possible i'll figure out a way to spend more as i really need this. if it's hard to access anything, pls tell me how to. also, preferably something that won't make my body look messed up, i don't want people to see me like that
for context, ex friends made a google doc of lies about stuff i've 'done' which i haven't as i spoke out about one sexually assaulting me and it made them mad, nobody believes me, i have drug problems and very bad mental health and i've been in and out of therapy for years, can't eat at all, body is in bad shape from
not eating + drugs, failing university, genuinely at peace with the idea of death now, im so exhausted
for context, ex friends made a google doc of lies about stuff i've 'done' which i haven't as i spoke out about one sexually assaulting me and it made them mad, nobody believes me, i have drug problems and very bad mental health and i've been in and out of therapy for years, can't eat at all, body is in bad shape from
not eating + drugs, failing university, genuinely at peace with the idea of death now, im so exhausted