Help questionable protocol ideas, but running out of options.

[aerials]

hey friends, first time poster but long time lurker.

i'll try not to ramble too much. i've been having a difficult time with sourcing sn, sa, or pn. i've been messaging vendors on mic, but to no avail. they either won't sell less than an expensive bulk amount, require a business name and address, or are just plain out of stock. i'm so desperate to ctb, i'm thinking of just attempting with methods that are easier for me to obtain.

one such method i was considering was a very high dose of an otc sleeping med called unisom. i've read that a dose of 2,000mg+ has the potential to be lethal, and 2,000mg is the dosage of a bottle of 80 25mg pills. alongside this, i was considering fasting for at least 8 hours and then downing 6 shots of vodka in hopes of upping the lethality. i know overdosing on otc meds is generally disregarded to be fruitless, but considering how out of it even 2 pills of unisom makes me, i feel like this could potentially have promise.

the other option that i've been mulling over is metaldehyde, a poison used in some snail and slug bait. it has no antidote which i very much appreciate. it causes "shake-and-bake syndrome", a combination of seizures (shake) and a very high fever (bake). my biggest concern would be coming up with a protocol. this poison only comes in pellets it seems, so how would i go about consuming it? just eat the pellets? grind them up in a food processor is mix the powder into water? and how much would i have to consume to ctb as opposed to just experiencing the unpleasant side effects?

i'm not overly concerned about pain or suffering during any attempt. i have a hard time believing there's anything that could feel worse than living.

 

[N@te]

hey friends, first time poster but long time lurker.

i'll try not to ramble too much. i've been having a difficult time with sourcing sn, sa, or pn. i've been messaging vendors on mic, but to no avail. they either won't sell less than an expensive bulk amount, require a business name and address, or are just plain out of stock. i'm so desperate to ctb, i'm thinking of just attempting with methods that are easier for me to obtain.

one such method i was considering was a very high dose of an otc sleeping med called unisom. i've read that a dose of 2,000mg+ has the potential to be lethal, and 2,000mg is the dosage of a bottle of 80 25mg pills. alongside this, i was considering fasting for at least 8 hours and then downing 6 shots of vodka in hopes of upping the lethality. i know overdosing on otc meds is generally disregarded to be fruitless, but considering how out of it even 2 pills of unisom makes me, i feel like this could potentially have promise.

the other option that i've been mulling over is metaldehyde, a poison used in some snail and slug bait. it has no antidote which i very much appreciate. it causes "shake-and-bake syndrome", a combination of seizures (shake) and a very high fever (bake). my biggest concern would be coming up with a protocol. this poison only comes in pellets it seems, so how would i go about consuming it? just eat the pellets? grind them up in a food processor is mix the powder into water? and how much would i have to consume to ctb as opposed to just experiencing the unpleasant side effects?

i'm not overly concerned about pain or suffering during any attempt. i have a hard time believing there's anything that could feel worse than living.

I'd try stabbing myself being attempting either of these methods. Especially the second one

 

[ctb_warrior]

My best advice is don't even think of non methods. It's only going to increase your frustration when you fail in it or end up in a psych ward..
If you have a good method, then go for it, or else, keep searching like me.