Purgetha
New Member
- Apr 16, 2023
- 4
So i have a question, am i depressed narcissist or i just have chronic depression? so to explain it shortly there you go:
Its like a being bullied, they say mean things, and beat you down to the ground, and after that you start to say to yourself that there's light at the end, start fantasizing about suicide, but then somehow, bearly you get a grip again, and as you start stepping your first several steps out of it. from (which could range from days to weeks, but for me its weeks days) and reach the "happy moment", and then the "bullies" come back just to repeat the same process, what's worse is that, i don't want to fix my situation lately, i kinda gave up, and start to not to care to people who say, "oh life is beautiful thing and you should live it" or "depression will come and go, suicide is permanent, once you step in you won't come back" and other of that bs, or might it be just me whining and coping? idk tbh.
Its like a being bullied, they say mean things, and beat you down to the ground, and after that you start to say to yourself that there's light at the end, start fantasizing about suicide, but then somehow, bearly you get a grip again, and as you start stepping your first several steps out of it. from (which could range from days to weeks, but for me its weeks days) and reach the "happy moment", and then the "bullies" come back just to repeat the same process, what's worse is that, i don't want to fix my situation lately, i kinda gave up, and start to not to care to people who say, "oh life is beautiful thing and you should live it" or "depression will come and go, suicide is permanent, once you step in you won't come back" and other of that bs, or might it be just me whining and coping? idk tbh.
