I do but it was partially due to me choosing to isolate myself. I didn't want to get better and hated the constant pressure to recover even though I don't want to, I was on some subreddits and other forums where people told me I probably had npd and aspd and that I should stay away from people as much as possible until I got mostly better, but they all ignored the fact that I didn't want to. Long story short I tried to live in the wilderness with a small backpack full of supplies, got very distraught, slipped while walking down a steep mountainside, sprained my back and nearly went hypothermic, so I came back to the city, rented a small apartment and now i am housebound with very minimal people contact. I still feel guilty when I have to walk to the supermarket and be around people and I still feel like I'm not isolated enough as I supposedly should be. I tried to argue against what the people on Reddit said in my own mind and convince myself I don't need to be isolated and I can just live my life, unrecovered narc or otherwise but damn those guys make some good arguments. Even as I type this my conscience is asking me why I'm not in the wilderness again and I just have to face it, build a bush hut way off the track and live there and work on my character until I'm not toxic. Even though I'm scared, I don't want to, and I am only a beginner tramper. Even bear Grylls would probably struggle to live in the wilderness full time, but my conscience says yes, but you're still obligated to.
