• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block. If you're located in the UK, we recommend using a VPN to maintain access.

TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,088
Over the years, even prior to joining SaSu in 2018, I have been periods of wanting to die and while there are pleasant moments, they are fleeting at best, and I have never really had times where I am like "I love life" or anything that, even on the best days. This is due to the fact that I see the world for what it is and how it is in general, so I know for a fact, that my time is drawing nearer. I have always battled things worse than CTB, the suckiness of life, and what not, and I know for a fact, that when I CTB, it would be better for humanity (as a whole), for me own peace, and ultimately, the end of the shit show of sentience, life, existence.

During the years of 2019 (a very pivotal year for me, and also the last pre-pandemic year), I have always wanted to die, and there are more times where I oftenly regret not being dead in 2019. Sure, I'd miss many milestones and short fleeting pleasures in the last three or so years, but that wouldn't matter once I'm gone. Therefore, I will be give it an solid 9, due to the fact that I cannot predict the future and circumstances that (could) come..
 
  • Like
Reactions: NeetAccount1
Scacie

Scacie

She/Her
Feb 24, 2023
243
I'm going to say 10. I have everything I need, and the only questions I have are technical. Things like drugs interactions for maximum efficacy l, or locations to CTB in
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: Mimi_
Mimi_

Mimi_

I only deserve to suffer
Mar 10, 2023
168
2/10 for me. I will have my SN in few weeks and hopefully ctb this month. If it fails I will probably just try to get hit by a train or something like that.
 
Last edited:

Similar threads

K
Replies
0
Views
125
Suicide Discussion
kopebaldy
K
JaegerBombastic
Replies
1
Views
214
Suicide Discussion
blacksand
blacksand
sgtpepper
Replies
0
Views
20
Suicide Discussion
sgtpepper
sgtpepper
Someplace_nice
Replies
1
Views
105
Recovery
ElTopo
ElTopo