I want to say 7. I can never see a future for myself, or rather one that I'm in. Just getting to this point has been a constant struggle. While on holiday in Europe I had visited both Beachy Head in the UK and Pulpit Rock in Norway. The former I got stopped and couldn't get to the actual cliff head, and the latter my SI kicked in and I ended up hiking back down. Despite having a few opportunities to cbt I'm still here for some reason. But just like this point last year, I can't see myself being here given another 12 months.