Question about burnouts

[Gaming Chicken]

So I've been just fed up with life in general I have no will to work and on the days where it's especially bad I literally just call in. I've been through jobs because of this before and I understand that they can't have an unreliable employee but at the same time, if I don't have the will to pick myself up off the couch, there's no way I'll be at all productive at work. It there a way to stop hating everything about life and get some sort of motivation to actually get serious about living it? Or am I resigned to be in this headspace until the end of the miserable existence. I've tried anti depressants but they do nothing but allow me to drown out the thoughts of suicide. They don't make me happy in any way and the definitely don't motivate me to do anything about anything. So I'm at a loss as of now