Purposely not eating or sleeping

[HelpDoesNotExist]

I have had no appetite and have tons of trouble sleeping because I hate my life so much, so I've decided to not only stop trying, but not let myself sleep or eat as long as possible. I want to start making myself pass out as often as I can, so my body will start shutting down and maybe I'll hit my head.
Every second feels so long. I can't laugh at anything anymore. All TV, books, and music are annoying. People's voices are annoying.
I don't care about my family. They threaten me with hospital despite me telling them over and over what happens in those places.

 

[Sulyya]

On any medication? What you describe won't really work as a method because the survival instinct part of your brain will overtake the rest. You could pass out but probably not lethally, unless you're in the ocean or something.

As a self harm method though, I get it I suppose, though usually those help get the pain out whereas this seems a bit like just increasing the misery. Then again, I kinda get that too.

 

[HelpDoesNotExist]

On any medication? What you describe won't really work as a method because the survival instinct part of your brain will overtake the rest. You could pass out but probably not lethally, unless you're in the ocean or something.

As a self harm method though, I get it I suppose, though usually those help get the pain out whereas this seems a bit like just increasing the misery. Then again, I kinda get that too.

None of it works. But as miserable as I already am maybe the added delirium will make it easier. Because even though I'm always miserable it being even worse might help. I already have health problems but more will create more urgency.