MisterOGBongWater
Student
- Aug 30, 2023
- 120
I think when the time comes soon I'll choose private. Somewhere in the woods by myself.
However sometimes I think about jumping off the bridge or killing myself in an accident just so people can pretend to give a shit.
But that's bullshit. I don't want people to care. Just sometimes. What I really want is to be better. Sympathy is just a bandaid. I'm so fucked. I have to die. I wish I would just go through with it already. Jumping would be so painful and I can't afford a gun right now. Nor do I have a place to hide it really for the time being. I think if I would do it I'd have to have the want and the funds right then and there. Can walk out with a shotgun same day. Hopefully soon the stars will align.
I wish drug ODs were more predictable. I love getting high. Maybe I'll get my hands on some fentanyl.
However sometimes I think about jumping off the bridge or killing myself in an accident just so people can pretend to give a shit.
But that's bullshit. I don't want people to care. Just sometimes. What I really want is to be better. Sympathy is just a bandaid. I'm so fucked. I have to die. I wish I would just go through with it already. Jumping would be so painful and I can't afford a gun right now. Nor do I have a place to hide it really for the time being. I think if I would do it I'd have to have the want and the funds right then and there. Can walk out with a shotgun same day. Hopefully soon the stars will align.
I wish drug ODs were more predictable. I love getting high. Maybe I'll get my hands on some fentanyl.
