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kai2001
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- May 5, 2022
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Sometime in July 2022, I believe, was the first time I ever ordered SN. Just one or two days later, I already chickened out out of fear of being caught and having to deal with legal consequences. Ever since then, this exact process repeated at least 3 times. Placed an order, waited a day or two, cancelled - almost like I was stuck in a loop. Not because I changed my mind on wanting to CTB though, just out of fear.
Well, it's been over a year now and I finally did it. Last week, I placed another order and it took me a lot of courage but I did not cancel this time. I just got an e-mail saying that shipping has begun and there is no way for me to cop out again. Now all I can do is wait until it arrives, presumably at the end of this week. I just wanted to share this because, as I said, this took me so long and it took me so much courage.
Now there are only two challenges left:
1. Somehow bridging the time until the SN arrives. I have no idea what to do until then because it's all I can think about. But I guess I will manage, it's a bit like being a child and awaiting Christmas
2. Overcoming my SI and actually taking the SN. This is the part I'm most worried about, but we'll see how it goes
Thank you for reading
Well, it's been over a year now and I finally did it. Last week, I placed another order and it took me a lot of courage but I did not cancel this time. I just got an e-mail saying that shipping has begun and there is no way for me to cop out again. Now all I can do is wait until it arrives, presumably at the end of this week. I just wanted to share this because, as I said, this took me so long and it took me so much courage.
Now there are only two challenges left:
1. Somehow bridging the time until the SN arrives. I have no idea what to do until then because it's all I can think about. But I guess I will manage, it's a bit like being a child and awaiting Christmas
2. Overcoming my SI and actually taking the SN. This is the part I'm most worried about, but we'll see how it goes
Thank you for reading