Venting promethazine & fluoxetine.

[Xyla]

i rely on these two for some source of serotonin, but sometime i do wish i could just overdose and end it all.
my first and second attempt to cut myself ended up in minor superficial cat scratches horizontally across by left forearm using a small bread knife, i wish i had cut deeper, i wish to overcome that fear of pain and bleeding..

i just want my suffering to be seen and acknowledged, instead of shunned and for me to be stuck between all the reassurances and stigmas of friends and family. a constant cycle, i cannot feel negativity, i cannot feel happiness..

i'm merely left to toil in my suffering, how sweet.

time and time again i feel this constant tug of war tear me apart mentally, i feel so very dead inside and it's such a pain to keep going, i want to kill myself and say goodbye to it all.

 

[El_Jefe]

I actually have promethaziee and was thinking of taking it before i mix my cardiac cocktail do you think the promethazien wont let u throw up

 

[Xyla]

I actually have promethaziee and was thinking of taking it before i mix my cardiac cocktail do you think the promethazien wont let u throw up

i'm not entirely sure myself.

 

[deletedaccount30982]

Neither of those medications have any sort of good chance at killing you. I know you're struggling but I would strongly advise you to not give into those urges as they will likely leave you alive but sick.