progress made on ctb method!!!

[JustNeedAdvice]

So, with the night night method, I haven't been able to successfully pass out, but I'm getting very, very close. Tonight I decided instead of using my hands to practice, I would fill a pair of socks with rice and compress them against my neck with a lace, figured it'd be a good step up. It managed to do more than what I was getting before, felt a lot more pressure and my vision kept fading. I backed out bc there was a chance i could wake up at a bad time and get caught, since I'm sorta already sleep deprived. I still don't have exactly enough pressure, its kinda hard to get into position with a thin shoe lace, and I think I need to fill the socks more, but progress!!!

I have this month and next to get this right. I think this'll work for me. I'm really hoping it does. it surprises me how much this makes me happy. All other times I've ever felt suicidal brought the same feeling of despair and fear associated to why I was feeling that way. Now I don't feel afraid. When I found out everything I needed was here for an unsuspecting, quick, and painless method, I felt excitement. Nothing has even been hurting me anymore like it used to. Like I can just finally let go. Its actually made life more enjoyable, being able to die, finally a full control of what happens to me. Nightmares stopped haunting me, I don't wake up feeling so immeasurably miserable, I'm able to enjoy the moment and feel truly happy. All because I know I can die now. It's so freeing.

 

[Huggs]

I'm happy to hear that it's giving you some comfort. That's good. I wasn't able to figure out the night night method, it's impressive you made progress.

 

[Shaylla1998]

Thank you for sharing this post. I have attempted the night-night method a couple of times myself since joining this forum, using a belt and socks, but unfortunately, it didn't have the described effect. I'm considering trying again, tonight maybe, by filling the socks with rice.

Regarding the second paragraph of your post, I can completely relate. Joining this forum has had a profoundly positive impact on me, granting me a sense of newfound freedom. It certainly is a great website that won't vanish from my bookmarks anytime soon.

 

[JustNeedAdvice]

Thank you for sharing this post. I have attempted the night-night method a couple of times myself since joining this forum, using a belt and socks, but unfortunately, it didn't have the described effect. I'm considering trying again, tonight maybe, by filling the socks with rice.

Regarding the second paragraph of your post, I can completely relate. Joining this forum has had a profoundly positive impact on me, granting me a sense of newfound freedom. It certainly is a great website that won't vanish from my bookmarks anytime soon.

I actually had only heard of this site from tantacrul's video. I had my own ideas of what this forum was about and made my judgements. Now I came here later remembering his vid, really wanting to die and knowing that this place would give me the answers I need to do it. But what I didn't expect was how much it lessened my pain. Beforehand I was considering doing a method that was risky and very painful, with complete fear and despair just consuming my waking moment. Its amazing how much its helped with all that

I know that no one is going to be happy with my death, but what's better - me hating every moment I'm alive and dying a slow, painful, and gruesome death, or enjoying the last moments I have and dying quickly and painlessly, at peace?

I will gladly let them know in my letter that I did not suffer

 

[Shaylla1998]

I actually had only heard of this site from tantacrul's video. I had my own ideas of what this forum was about and made my judgements. Now I came here later remembering his vid, really wanting to die and knowing that this place would give me the answers I need to do it. But what I didn't expect was how much it lessened my pain. Beforehand I was considering doing a method that was risky and very painful, with complete fear and despair just consuming my waking moment. Its amazing how much its helped with all that

I know that no one is going to be happy with my death, but what's better - me hating every moment I'm alive and dying a slow, painful, and gruesome death, or enjoying the last moments I have and dying quickly and painlessly, at peace?

I will gladly let them know in my letter that I did not suffer

I too was led to this website through Tantacrul's video, which struck me as somewhat illogical. Considering that I usually consume content related to scientific, political, nihilistic, highly educational, or gaming topics, it remains a mystery how his video, especially since it was age-restricted, managed to appear in my feed. Nonetheless, I embrace the astronomically small coincidence that led me here. I had been searching for a website like this for quite some time, and at some point, I had even given up the search. I have encountered a significant amount of websites advertising that "everyone deserves help, call x number, it's free", however, if they truly meant what they advertised, they'd fight for the legalization of assisted suicide... Anyway, it's truly gratifying to have finally discovered this platform, and I'm genuinely delighted to have arrived here.

Those around you may grieve and be sad about your passing, however, we have been given the will to make our own choices.
Eventually, our lives will cease, and those who remember us will also pass away. Over time, both individuals and civilizations eventually come to an end. The choices we make, good or bad, are insignificant in the greater picture, nothing matters in the end. Our lives, memories, experiences, thoughts, and actions are but a single frame in an infinitely long and ever evolving movie.

 

[90starve]

So, with the night night method, I haven't been able to successfully pass out, but I'm getting very, very close. Tonight I decided instead of using my hands to practice, I would fill a pair of socks with rice and compress them against my neck with a lace, figured it'd be a good step up. It managed to do more than what I was getting before, felt a lot more pressure and my vision kept fading. I backed out bc there was a chance i could wake up at a bad time and get caught, since I'm sorta already sleep deprived. I still don't have exactly enough pressure, its kinda hard to get into position with a thin shoe lace, and I think I need to fill the socks more, but progress!!!

I have this month and next to get this right. I think this'll work for me. I'm really hoping it does. it surprises me how much this makes me happy. All other times I've ever felt suicidal brought the same feeling of despair and fear associated to why I was feeling that way. Now I don't feel afraid. When I found out everything I needed was here for an unsuspecting, quick, and painless method, I felt excitement. Nothing has even been hurting me anymore like it used to. Like I can just finally let go. Its actually made life more enjoyable, being able to die, finally a full control of what happens to me. Nightmares stopped haunting me, I don't wake up feeling so immeasurably miserable, I'm able to enjoy the moment and feel truly happy. All because I know I can die now. It's so freeing.

it's great that you are feeling more at peace with your thoughts <3 wishing you the best with your next steps!

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would feel so relieved at the thought of having a way to free yourself from everything, good luck.

 

[black.dahlia]

So, with the night night method, I haven't been able to successfully pass out, but I'm getting very, very close. Tonight I decided instead of using my hands to practice, I would fill a pair of socks with rice and compress them against my neck with a lace, figured it'd be a good step up. It managed to do more than what I was getting before, felt a lot more pressure and my vision kept fading. I backed out bc there was a chance i could wake up at a bad time and get caught, since I'm sorta already sleep deprived. I still don't have exactly enough pressure, its kinda hard to get into position with a thin shoe lace, and I think I need to fill the socks more, but progress!!!

I have this month and next to get this right. I think this'll work for me. I'm really hoping it does. it surprises me how much this makes me happy. All other times I've ever felt suicidal brought the same feeling of despair and fear associated to why I was feeling that way. Now I don't feel afraid. When I found out everything I needed was here for an unsuspecting, quick, and painless method, I felt excitement. Nothing has even been hurting me anymore like it used to. Like I can just finally let go. Its actually made life more enjoyable, being able to die, finally a full control of what happens to me. Nightmares stopped haunting me, I don't wake up feeling so immeasurably miserable, I'm able to enjoy the moment and feel truly happy. All because I know I can die now. It's so freeing.

i hope i get to your point in your journey one day. i havent practiced the night-night method yet, part of me is too scared. but i know when my mind has finally had enough i wont be anymore.
this thread actually helped me a bit lol. i was gonna try and get a tree rachet like the megathread said but i guess using a belt could also work!
i think ill start practicing soon:)

 

[アホペンギン]

ngl, i'm quite envious of you. I am considering using the same method you are and you already came so far. I hope you succeed in what you're trying to do soon and I wish the best for you

 

[lsssrrr]

I can just finally let go. Its actually made life more enjoyable, being able to die.

It's crazy how being able to CTB makes you wanna live.

Like the whole "don't even consider it! help is available!" thing just makes me feel more trapped and stressed. But if I knew I could CTB whenever I wanted? I'd be like "well, maybe I'll give it some time. Go and do some things I've always wanted. Stop and smell the roses."