Method Probably the worst CTB method (that I will attempt anyway)

[scary]

I'm going to be attempting VSED but I'm going to add one more thing: I'm going to lock myself in my room

You're probably thinking that this sounds like unnecessary torture, and it is, I'm not going to deny that fact. I just have absolutely nothing. Every 'method' I could try will ultimately end in failure, while VSED is pretty much a guarantee albeit slow and painful. The added factor of trapping myself in my room would be a way to potentially stop my SI from taking over, and I have everything I could ever need in my bedroom so I wouldn't need to go out in case of emergency, plus I'm used to staying in my room all day.

If you're reading this and you for some reason think to consider this as a method, please do not follow in my footsteps. Even if you're like me and have absolutely nothing at your disposal, please do not attempt it. VSED is a non-method for a reason. Your SI will find a way to break through and get you to eat and drink, plus the added factor of being stuck in one room could be even worse for someone mental health wise. I can't physically prevent anyone on here from trying it, all I can do is just highly discourage it. At the end of the day, it's your life and your call but again I'd highly suggest pushing through and finding something else.

Even though this is a post about my method, it most likely won't be my final as much as I would like it be. I truly wish I had a faster instant method, but I just don't. I've been debating getting a notebook and writing down every day to maybe encourage me to keep going, but we'll see. And if the site isn't completely sick of me lol I'll maybe make one or two more threads about my progress. Even as I'm editing this I'm still slightly debating if I should just wait until after Christmas or even the new year and start in the beginning of January.

Anyway thank you for reading all the way if you did. I've looked back on my old posts and I can just tell that I wrote a majority of them while I wasn't in a good state of mind, which makes sense but I'm still apologetic about it. Bless this site for still being around and I thank everyone who takes the time to read my threads even if they don't make sense half the time.

I love you all

- scary

 

[eggsausagerice]

Every 'method' I could try will ultimately end in failure, while VSED is pretty much a guarantee albeit slow and painful. The added factor of trapping myself in my room would be a way to potentially stop my SI from taking over, and I have everything I could ever need in my bedroom so I wouldn't need to go out in case of emergency, plus I'm used to staying in my room all day.

even if you have nothing, this method just doesn't seem like it'll work or is guaranteed to work at all. i've starved myself for 2 days before and the emptiness in my stomach was super painful. dehydration headaches are even worse. it's also easy to puke or feel nauseous every time you stand up when you have nothing inside your stomach. i think this method is only viable when you're wandering outside in the wilderness or on a long hike. i'm sorry for the circumstances that got you into this situation. i know that you already recognize this as the worst method, but you should reconsider.

 

[copioushopelessness]

That's going to take a will of steel but you already know that. I've considered this too.
Do you live alone?

 

[Slark]

This is a very difficult and painful method, however, the choice will always be yours. All I can do is wish you peace, whatever your choice may be.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I agree with the others, this "method" is almost guaranteed not to work. And idk why you think all other methods will fail.

 

[iveseenfootage]

I really implore you to not try this method, as it's basically the complete antithesis of normal human behavior (and will thus trigger SI like crazy). Regardless, I hope you find peace.

 

[OzymandiAsh]

If you really are going to attempt this... I highly recommend you read the VSED chapter of the PPH. Contains a lot of useful information.

Good luck :)

 

[SuicidalSuperhero]

I wish you good luck with your chosen path, traveler.

My depression is so bad that for a couple months this year, I had no desire to eat unless I got high. Which I started doing just so I could take my medication in the morning. I thought about just letting it happen because apparently even my subconscious wanted me to die. Part of me wanted to just not eat until I finally died, but another part of me knew that I wouldn't be able to get away with it.

 

[DoublingDown]

As someone who's struggled with an ED for the majority of my life, I've never understood VSED. On an ED forum there was a guy who did water fasts for months at a time, but then even looking at abuse victims who were starved and abused for years. You go insane, any way you can escape you will try. A phone, a window, a shared wall. If the walls aren't cement, you can break through them even at the cost of your skin and bones. Anything in the room you will try to eat. People have resorted to eating their own body. Could it work, obviously people die of dehydration and starvation so yeah. But I don't think the odds are as good as they sound. I hope you can find peace in a way that isn't so painful

 

[peacefulsleepnow]

Wondering how you are doing, scary.