Probably leaving tonight and if not, it might be soon.

[neikos496]

I'm chocking myself tonight, and if not it's gonna be around this time. The most I can wait is a month for things to resolve financially for my mom (she has an inheritance due), and then I can leave peacefully. I dread being an adult and this existence.

I hope there is another side and that I can get to be happy there and experience everything I haven't experienced here. I'm really glad I found this forum because it would've made my death more violent otherwise, or my life more unbearable.

I cry when I think of leaving tho. It's weird. I feel immense relief but I also feel a sense of grief. Perhaps the guilt of leaving my mom behind. I can't live for her… God knows I can't.

 

[behindtheveil]

I'm chocking myself tonight, and if not it's gonna be around this time. The most I can wait is a month for things to resolve financially for my mom (she has an inheritance due), and then I can leave peacefully. I dread being an adult and this existence.

I hope there is another side and that I can get to be happy there and experience everything I haven't experienced here. I'm really glad I found this forum because it would've made my death more violent otherwise, or my life more unbearable.

I cry when I think of leaving tho. It's weird. I feel immense relief but I also feel a sense of grief. Perhaps the guilt of leaving my mom behind. I can't live for her… God knows I can't.

I can relate to what u are saying, but I have come to realize that life is a cruel task master. Few years ago, when I first started with this CTB ideation, my only concern was how will my mom cope up with this step of mine. I had a weak will then, but life didn't, it took my mom away within a couple of months. It was as if it was challenging me for the next move.
But by any chance you decide otherwise, come back and join us, we are all casualties of life but would love to hear from you and delve into conversations.

 

[urgent]

I'm chocking myself tonight, and if not it's gonna be around this time. The most I can wait is a month for things to resolve financially for my mom (she has an inheritance due), and then I can leave peacefully. I dread being an adult and this existence.

I hope there is another side and that I can get to be happy there and experience everything I haven't experienced here. I'm really glad I found this forum because it would've made my death more violent otherwise, or my life more unbearable.

I cry when I think of leaving tho. It's weird. I feel immense relief but I also feel a sense of grief. Perhaps the guilt of leaving my mom behind. I can't live for her… God knows I can't.

I hope you find peace friend
.I wish I could go with you. It gets really difficult to find a way when you get older and get physically sick and weak. I'm having trouble eating and swallowing from severe gastroparesis. And my memory is starting to get bad by the time we have MAiD in NY they will say I don't qualify. I wish I could find a partner to go to a hotel with helium.

 

[qtk5436]

I'm chocking myself tonight, and if not it's gonna be around this time. The most I can wait is a month for things to resolve financially for my mom (she has an inheritance due), and then I can leave peacefully. I dread being an adult and this existence.

I hope there is another side and that I can get to be happy there and experience everything I haven't experienced here. I'm really glad I found this forum because it would've made my death more violent otherwise, or my life more unbearable.

I cry when I think of leaving tho. It's weird. I feel immense relief but I also feel a sense of grief. Perhaps the guilt of leaving my mom behind. I can't live for her… God knows I can't.

I'm really sorry you feel this way, but if you don't mind can I ask why? I'm not exactly a professional but maybe we could relate on some things at least.

 

[darksouls]

however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you desire

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering.