probably CTB tonight

[MariV]

my mother needs a break from my drama and will spend the night at my grandparents. i dont want to do this at home but i have low mobility. we have SN here and she knows perfectly. as long as she doesnt remember and leaves me alone for the night ill be able to do it. if i dont post again tomorrow delete my account.
many thx to all who have helped me, you know who you are. have a good life everyone.

 

[TripleA]

I want you eternal peace

 

[MariV]

if im not afraid of pain, sould i avoid analgesics? for not vomiting i mean

what about diazepam for the anxiety? does it increase or decreace chances of vomiting?

 

[Dead beat dad]

my mother needs a break from my drama and will spend the night at my grandparents. i dont want to do this at home but i have low mobility. we have SN here and she knows perfectly. as long as she doesnt remember and leaves me alone for the night ill be able to do it. if i dont post again tomorrow delete my account.
many thx to all who have helped me, you know who you are. have a good life everyone.

Love and respect to you friend. I'm so sorry for the circumstances that have brought you to this end.
I wish there is something I could say or do to assuage the pain you're in. With all my sincerity I wish you peace and light, love and understanding friend.
DBD

 

[MariV]

Love and respect to you friend. I'm so sorry for the circumstances that have brought you to this end.
I wish there is something I could say or do to assuage the pain you're in. With all my sincerity I wish you peace and light, love and understanding friend.
DBD

my greatest pain is having my mother find my corpse when she gets back. i think before taking the SN ill send one of those delayed messages so she knows before coming

 

[Soul]

my greatest pain is having my mother find my corpse when she gets back. i think before taking the SN ill send one of those delayed messages so she knows before coming

@MariV, I'm sorry life hasn't been a better fit. I don't think either analgesics or benzos have any ill effects on sn as long as one doesn't overdo them. And I'll leave a note just inside my front door to warn my relatives, rather than sending a delayed email. I just don't trust high tech enough.

I wish you all the best decisions and outcomes for you x

 

[Ghost2211]

The amount of suffering you've endured is awful. I'm so sorry life brought you to this point, and for what you and your mother are going through. I hope your journey is painless, and your able to have relief.

 

[albino_elk]

Oof good luck, do not accept any contracts there "something for something in return" ^^,

 

[jing]

Hey I have been reading your posts and understand that life has been so hard on you so as to push you to this point. I'm proud of you and applaud your courage for braving the journey thus far, and more so for whichever option you choose, to continue or otherwise.

Wishing you a swift journey and then everlasting peace.

 

[Lilacmoon]

Good luck. I hope all of your pain and suffering finally ends. You deserved better.

 

[Deleted member 19654]

I'm sad to see you go and I'm sorry you've suffered so much in terms of your health. I hope that you're able to find some peace.

 

[Pharmaruined]

Oof good luck, do not accept any contracts there "something for something in return" ^^,

Yep.. no regrets and no do overs to "get it right" @MariV

I wish you peace ,good travels..and many blessings friend

 

[BPD Barbie]

Best of luck on your journey. I think the delayed message to your mother is a good idea, at least it won't be total shock then. Sorry that so much has happened that has brought you to this point. All my love

 

[voyager]

Good luck to you. Hope it all works out and you find peace. I'm sorry you couldn't make peace with your mum on this. Have a good relationship with mine as well but we could never agree on it either. It's shit having to this in hiding when really one would like to go in harmony and understanding. Take care.

 

[MariV]

well its such a tricky situation. its going to be such a big shock. bit i rly dont feel like living anymore. now shes saying shes leaving tomorrow so..one day more.
she tells openly that she wouldnt live in pain and discomfort for the sake of others so why am i doing it now that i have the means? thank u everybody

 

[plough22]

Whatever you decide, I hope you find peace.

 

[infinitelove]

All the best with your journey. May it be swift and peaceful. Lots of love and hugs.