Prepping seems exhausting

[finish.me]

Literally the worst thing for me right now is how much I have to set up before I do it. Like I can't just die for some reason the universe wants to put in a final blow and suck all the energy I have left in order to make it even harder and exhausting and frustrating than it already is to die. I have to delete everything, burn bridges and hide shit and buy things and prepare everything perfectly just so I can lay down and fucking perish. Why can't someone just fucking break in and shoot me

 

[FuneralCry]

I know that it is hard to get things done when you are tired of everything. I wish I could just fall asleep and never wake, it sounds so peaceful. I'm sorry you have to go through this. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[myopybyproxy]

It really is. Sometimes I want to say fuck it and just go with what I have. But then I remind myself that doing that will likely lead to failure. I have to constantly battle existential exhaustion with logic - if I want to succeed, I must tough it out for the next few weeks and continue preparing.

I've considered suicide by cop, death penalty for capital crime, and antagonising someone in a gang to shoot or stab me. All of which still require effort. How ironic that those who get cancer are often the ones who want to live and have potential, whereas many of us suicidals are blessed / cursed with good health. Someone ought to start a swap platform where people can trade health conditions and other physical attributes.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

It really is. Sometimes I want to say fuck it and just go with what I have. But then I remind myself that doing that will likely lead to failure. I have to constantly battle existential exhaustion with logic - if I want to succeed, I must tough it out for the next few weeks and continue preparing.

I've considered suicide by cop, death penalty for capital crime, and antagonising someone in a gang to shoot or stab me. All of which still require effort. How ironic that those who get cancer are often the ones who want to live and have potential, whereas many of us suicidals are blessed / cursed with good health. Someone ought to start a swap platform where people can trade health conditions and other physical attributes.

People often ask here about unconventional methods that would probably have a high success rate and one I always say is piss off a criminal organization or a government

I think death penalty for capital crime isn't viable . These guys wait on death row for decades and by the time your turn comes up the world might be really pinko and end the death penalty

 

[myopybyproxy]

People often ask here about unconventional methods that would probably have a high success rate and one I always say is piss off a criminal organization or a government

I think death penalty for capital crime isn't viable . These guys wait on death row for decades and by the time your turn comes up the world might be really pinko and end the death penalty

Yep, moving to Singapore and spitting chewed gum in the street is a highly underrated method. Or try to sell dope on the Mexican or Italian mafia's turf. Good point about death penalty - it's like the OTC pill overdose of the physical methods (vs chemical).

 

[Interloper]

Or try to sell dope on the Mexican or Italian mafia's turf. G

Don't know about that, I've seen cartel videos that would probably have you change your mind

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I'm only doing minimal prep necessary for the suicide itself, nothing else. Still really exhausting to just get that extremely small stuff set up right (it's only like twenty minutes of work, but need the ability to stick to a plan for more than five minutes).

 

[myopybyproxy]

Don't know about that, I've seen cartel videos that would probably have you change your mind

I've seen a few as well...Not saying it would be fast or painless, but you'd definitely be dead by the time they were done with you. Being heavily sedated with your own product would probably make it a little less awful.