Today I start prepping for my CTB countdown. I decided on my method and that is do drown intoxicated on alcohol in the ocean. My other method was jumping off the bridge but the bridge that I want to jump off doesn't seem high enough to kill me. I want this attempt to final and I don't want to fail. I have a good chance of succeeding at drowning in the ocean because I can't swim so I think this is a good method for me. I told myself today I really cannot go on any longer. I have been suicidal for 3 years now and I don't want to go on any longer. My prepping involves doing lots of cleaning and getting things in order. I am also going to be trying different alcohols to see how my body reacts. I am not a drinker, and I don't have access to anything that can help me besides alcohol. Hopefully getting intoxicated on alcohol numbs me so I can make the drowning process smoother. I have tried Benadryl but that doesn't work for me. If anyone has any suggestions or tips on my plan and the prepping process, please let me know. I want out this thing called LIFE. I have truly reached the end of my life and do not want to continue on any longer.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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To me it's really understandable just wishing to be free from this existence, I wish you the best with your plans and I hope you eventually find the freedom you search for, I hate how it's so unnecessarily difficult to leave this world.
CW36
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- Jul 23, 2023
- 839
Hey, your pain is clearly very real and I hope you succeed for your sake. Do you know roughly how far you can wade into the ocean before not being able to stand? Cause it might not be far enough I.e. you could lose consciousness and be washed up back on the beach within minutes. As for the alcohol, if you're looking to get smashed, then a decent navy strength gin seems appropriate.
I am going to go as far as I can. I can't swim or even float so I think I have a good chance at succeeding. I have read successful stories about people CTB by drowning in the ocean and it seems like most of them were sedated by something such as alcohol, they went far out or swam out and eventually they died. Thanks for the advice on the alcohol. I am planning on buying and testing alcohol to see how it feels.
CW36
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- Jul 23, 2023
- 839
Yes, there was one up in Scotland not so long ago. Was on the BBC. Although she could swim, so the odds would be in your favour.
blitz
Alive out of habit
- Nov 14, 2022
- 64
Drowning is terrifying to me. I hope things go the the way you plan. Hope you have a peaceful exit.
