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d3ad

d3ad

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Mar 15, 2023
175
My SN is arriving this week. I have already made peace with the idea of being gone. I processed my emotions and asked myself if this is what I really want, and I am sure that it is. I felt excited initially, then sad and now idk what I'm feeling. I'm just happy that my pain will end and I won't have to suffer anymore. Right now I am in excruciating emotional pain. Few days from now, all of this will be gone. I am experiencing a hard time imagining eternal oblivion, but it doesn't matter. I won't be experiencing or feeling anything. I feel horrible for the people who love me who will be deeply hurt by my decision, but my pain is worse. I deserve better, I deserve peace. I have lived my entire short life in pain, I deserve to rest. I was wondering whether I should leave a note behind, but my pain is too complex to just reduce it to words. They will understand - someone has to have been in a lot of pain for them to consider ctb as their best option.
 
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catfriend

catfriend

meow!
Apr 3, 2025
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godspeed! i hope you find peace. you deserve it. we all do. :)
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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I hope you find peace! Good luck!
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
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Every good wish.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope you find the freedom from the pain and suffering you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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hoshi_starrz

hoshi_starrz

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May 24, 2023
4
I hope you find peace and your journey is painless. I'll see you among the constellations <3
 
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d3ad

d3ad

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Mar 15, 2023
175
Thank you so much, friends. I appreciate all of you.
 
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belowaveragefish

belowaveragefish

YonKaGor Enjoyer
Jan 10, 2025
42
My SN is arriving this week. I have already made peace with the idea of being gone. I processed my emotions and asked myself if this is what I really want, and I am sure that it is. I felt excited initially, then sad and now idk what I'm feeling. I'm just happy that my pain will end and I won't have to suffer anymore. Right now I am in excruciating emotional pain. Few days from now, all of this will be gone. I am experiencing a hard time imagining eternal oblivion, but it doesn't matter. I won't be experiencing or feeling anything. I feel horrible for the people who love me who will be deeply hurt by my decision, but my pain is worse. I deserve better, I deserve peace. I have lived my entire short life in pain, I deserve to rest. I was wondering whether I should leave a note behind, but my pain is too complex to just reduce it to words. They will understand - someone has to have been in a lot of pain for them to consider ctb as their best option.
Yet another brave soul striking a blow for freedom. Safe travels, friend.
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

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Jun 2, 2024
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we're with you 🫂🫂🫂 you absolutely deserve peace and rest.
 
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d3ad

Student
Mar 15, 2023
175
I swear I am not crying. You guys are so kind. I am so grateful for all these sweet and positive comments. 🥺🥺🥺
 
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liza

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Mar 2, 2025
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I will remember you for sure you will have a place in my heart. Good luck. Also I would just like to say if you think about the day you do it maybe stay for one more day because what if you feel better the next day its worth discovering.
 
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d3ad

Student
Mar 15, 2023
175
I will remember you for sure you will have a place in my heart. Good luck. Also I would just like to say if you think about the day you do it maybe stay for one more day because what if you feel better the next day its worth discovering.
Thank you so much, friend. 🫂 🫂
 
opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

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Jun 2, 2024
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you're in my thoughts unmet friend. 🫂🫂🫂💗💗💗
 
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Linda

Linda

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Jul 30, 2020
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I hope all goes well for you. (And I always really liked your pfp.)
 
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