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greyblue_bian
2x Failed CTB Member
- Jun 10, 2022
- 162
I'm trying my best to find the other things that are suggested to take with my SN, but while I've been preparing my note/will for when I CTB, I've also been thinking about what I want to do if I fail again. I think this time, I will try to finally leave the family that's hurt me behind. I've thought of multiple different ways to raise money to move out and I already have a car that's paid off so I don't need to worry about that. I've got an apartment in mind that's relatively affordable and pretty decent and its hours away from my family and in a really quiet, nice area with a nice park, library, and vintage movie theater to go to. Other than that, I'll just be going to school and trying to get some scholarships and raise money to afford all that. I have no idea if I'll try to attempt again after I fail and go through with my "plan B". But, that's something for me to think about if it comes to that. I may not even continue school. I'd rather just work since a library job or something like that would be enough for me to get by on + I will probably pet-sit and continue writing my poetry and possibly work on my book over time. The only family I plan to keep in contact with are my cousins and my friends. I'm not sure about my mother considering our relationship. Everything looks so unsure the more I try looking ahead and seeing where my plan might get me. But, I think I'll be okay. I just want this to work.