Discussion Preparation

[VileLiquid]

I know there are some similar posts like this, and please don't answer if you think it's too personal, but I am curious as to what you are doing, or would plan to do, if you are thinking about CTB.

I get the generic letter writing, finance checking, event preparation... but I don't want to forget anything.

Curious what others may have thought of. My time is coming and I want to be ready. It's hard to not be impulsive over this, it would certainly be easier.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that for me, the most important thing would be to research the chosen method to make sure that it doesn't fail. Everything else would be meaningless to me, as things are incapable of being important to me once I am gone. The fear of failure is what holds me back from attempting personally and I wish that suicide is not so difficult. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

 

[Seeking_Peace]

-Going by N
-No note (I have a huge family, not writing all that)
-Leaving my debit card with pin and 10k bal
-If my family uses some for me or not will say a lot

My process is going to be simple. Not going to overcomplicate it.

 

[VileLiquid]

I think that for me, the most important thing would be to research the chosen method to make sure that it doesn't fail. Everything else would be meaningless to me, as things are incapable of being important to me once I am gone. The fear of failure is what holds me back from attempting personally and I wish that suicide is not so difficult. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

Yes this is honestly where I have been at as well. My method has changed wildly:

- from being absolutely positive on an Exit Bag
- to looking into SN (really planned all the steps out for this, unfortunately feeling comfortable in actually ACQUIRING everything was very different - seemed really unsure/very difficult to do properly)
- "detergent" method - not off the table yet, watched a video of scientists testing measurements of solutions and this seems achievable. More research to be done
- CO poisoning - again, multiple ways to do this and more research
- And now I am looking into N, thanks to Seeking_Peace above. Just was reading the megathread and now going to spend the day deep diving into the PPeH about it. I actually just got lost in it for awhile.

I have literally tried so hard to succeed at absolutely anything, and have always crashed and failed. I hope I do not fail at this.

-Going by N
-No note (I have a huge family, not writing all that)
-Leaving my debit card with pin and 10k bal
-If my family uses some for me or not will say a lot

My process is going to be simple. Not going to overcomplicate it.

Thank you for mentioning N. I was kind of blinded by the other methods (see above). But this is what I will be looking into today.

Also working on a list of passwords and such. I have a few letters to write - thankfully most of them are typed because I don't have many friends that aren't on the internet.

 

[outatime_85]

Should a day come when my demons become too much and I decide to cash out, I would make every effort to have my affairs in order (notes, journal entries, etc.).

Make certain that all of the puzzle pieces that I would want to use for cashing out are in proper order.

Start fasting, keeping calories to 500 or less until I reach a certain weight.

I would also do a lot of contemplating, meditating, and reading, and in the end, if I still thought it must be done, my mind and body would be prepared.