Powerful intrusive thoughts

[S like Siren]

I have been prey to very negative intrusive thoughts all night long, very negative and repetitive thoughts that say I suck, that I'm worthless, that I'm boring and ugly and an horrible thing, that my family doesn't give a damn about me,my mother and my father hope deep down that i die because i was a mistake,that nobody wants being close to me, that I'm stupid, that everyone at school made fun of me ... that I'm worthless, that I'm worthless ... that I shouldn't have been born, that I'm disgusting, that I'm good for nothing, that I am insignificant and in the meantime all the past moments pass in my mind when at school or at home they made fun of me and said bad words or ignored me ... all bad things in which people made me understand with gestures or words that I do I suck and they don't want me next to me because I'm boring or ugly or because I'm insignificant .... these thoughts don't leave me alone and they torment me to the point that I want to hurt myself badly and I started punching myself in the head to get them stop and because I suck and I wouldn't be never had to be born ... I suck.
But these are not just thoughts...these are the truth...i suck,i'm worthless...this explains a lot of things like why noone wanted to be around me...i have to suck really a lot

 

[Blondi]

You are smartest , hottest and the most interesting person ever .

 

[Al Cappella]

I have those very same thoughts on a daily basis, so I know completely what that's like. It really blows.

 

[_Minsk]

Im dealing with this as well, it's very painful, yet im exhausted trying the best i can. Please don't beat yourself up

 

[Looooser]

It's so hard for me to get out of my head! I watch a lot of tv that helps a lot but not all the time.

 

[jimmy7754]

The world just beats us down.. true depression is when your brain is a bully and your an adult. I just want to turn off. I can't do this anymore I cry a lot because I don't believe there is anything after this.. I feel we are trapped.

 

[StarryStarry]

Your mind is playing tricks on you. You are a wonderful person who is intelligent, articulate and worthy of nothing but good and positive things in your life. I understand how you feel as I am going through the same thing (negative thoughts). I want you to know that your thoughts are NOT who you are.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering. This life can be so horrible as our thoughts can torture us. I can imagine it must be unbearable to have to go through that. I wish you the best.

 

[S like Siren]

You are smartest , hottest and the most interesting person ever .

Thank you for yoir kind message Blondi :* <3

I have those very same thoughts on a daily basis, so I know completely what that's like. It really blows.

Yeah:( i'm so sorry you deal with these awful thoughts every day,i'm close to you...

Im dealing with this as well, it's very painful, yet im exhausted trying the best i can. Please don't beat yourself up

Thank you,hurt myself is the only way to stop them for a minute...i'm really exhausted too

It's so hard for me to get out of my head! I watch a lot of tv that helps a lot but not all the time.

Yes,i do the same,i try to distract myself with videos and movies but not always works...you are right:(

The world just beats us down.. true depression is when your brain is a bully and your an adult. I just want to turn off. I can't do this anymore I cry a lot because I don't believe there is anything after this.. I feel we are trapped.

I agree totally,we are trapped....i cry all the time too:(

Your mind is playing tricks on you. You are a wonderful person who is intelligent, articulate and worthy of nothing but good and positive things in your life. I understand how you feel as I am going through the same thing (negative thoughts). I want you to know that your thoughts are NOT who you are.

Thank you for your beautiful message<3 i'm sorry you are going throught the same

I'm sorry you are suffering. This life can be so horrible as our thoughts can torture us. I can imagine it must be unbearable to have to go through that. I wish you the best.

Thank you:* yeah,it's a torture in fact and it's unbearable to the point that i need to punch myself badly...i'm so tired

 

[_Minsk]

Very bad depression really plays with our minds!
It makes us believe always the worst about ourselves. Depression really changes our perception of ourselves and and the world from my experience, im sorry you're going through this:(
Sending hugs

 

[S like Siren]

Very bad depression really plays with our minds!
It makes us believe always the worst about ourselves. Depression really changes our perception of ourselves and and the world from my experience, im sorry you're going through this:(
Sending hugs

Yes,it does...you are aware of it but you can't do nothing about it,it's something so powerful that devours you...is leading me to suicide in fact from desperation.Thank you for your hugs,i need them<3<3