Discussion POV: you find out you're dying

[L0nely]

How would you feel if someone told you that you're dying (quite soon).
You no longer have a choice over where/when/how you die (kinda) but you also no longer have to fight your SI nor make your ctb plan.
What would be your reaction?

 

[Rev346]

I'd be happy that I wouldn't have to deal with SI and I wouldn't have to tell people that I want to ctb. However I'd end up being stressed knowing that I need to put a plan in place to ensure my family is taken care of once I'm gone.

 

[Division Day]

If it's a relatively peaceful death where some day in the next 6 weeks you'll either not wake up or just collapse suddenly, I would feel a huge relief. No worries about acquiring something or willing myself to jump. Just do what I want in the knowledge that it'll all be over soon.

If it's a standard terminal illness where my body breaks down and I suffer greatly in those 6 weeks, I'd feel even more desperate to find a way that I can end it. Maybe I wouldn't have to fight SI much if there's no longer even a tiny chance of things getting better.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd just feel relieved by the fact that soon enough I'll be eternally unaware. I see to cease existing as the best possible outcome as one cannot suffer from the absence of everything, it's comforting to think of existence no longer being my concern.

 

[february in alaska]

Relief. Higher chance of being able to go peacefully and legally, being able to prepare my loved ones ahead of time, not having to be alone when I go.

Although I guess it would depend on the details. As long as it was six months or less and I could convince my family not to waste money on treatment, then absolutely. It sounds so fucked up to wish for a terminal illness, especially when so many people with terminal illnesses want to live and deserve to live, but it would make things so much easier

 

[L0nely]

It sounds so fucked up to wish for a terminal illness, especially when so many people with terminal illnesses want to live and deserve to live

I feel bad wishing it sometimes because of exactly what you said. So many terminally ill peple wishing to have more time while I'm over here wishing to be 6 feet under

 

[peachchildtenshi]

Obviously it would suck if others knew about the condition,
they would then try to put up a facade and pretend they cared for you and some other bullshit.
But if I was the only one that knows it then, it is what it is

 

[Division Day]

I feel bad wishing it sometimes because of exactly what you said. So many terminally ill peple wishing to have more time while I'm over here wishing to be 6 feet under

To me that just makes it more frustrating that we're refused the chance to die in a decent way. Idk what shape my organs are in, but at least some of them could save someone's life. But no matter how I ctb, they're going to be no good to anyone. So maybe 5 lives are wasted.

 

[L0nely]

To me that just makes it more frustrating that we're refused the chance to die in a decent way. Idk what shape my organs are in, but at least some of them could save someone's life. But no matter how I ctb, they're going to be no good to anyone. So maybe 5 lives are wasted.

Well, organs from person who ctb are least preffered but with current organ shortage crisis they don't look as down on it as they used to. I guess also depends how you ctb, not sure.

 

[voyager]

Would love to be put in such a position, tbh. Like for instance in a plane going down or so. Knowing one is going to die has it merits. Knowing it'll be over for sure and one won't suffer no more. Had a medical situation once where I thought it was the case and came to accept it. Had no worries at all anymore and it was extremely peaceful.

But as a terminal illness, hm, have two potentially lethal issues, but medicate them both because they're not a nice way to go and want to stay in control so that it ultimately remains my choice. Would probably commit ctb out of protest when things get too rough.

 

[tinyghost]

i have some major health problems and have knocked on deaths door a few times. whenever i feel like something is seriously wrong, i always wish super hard that it just kills me this time. however it still freaks me out and i get scared. i think the fear comes from not wanting to go to the hospital anymore and less from dying. its not exactly the same as having a terminal illness with a somewhat set amount of time to live. in that situation i think i would feel scared but relieved. dying is extremely hard and so not having to worry about it takes a lot off the plate. i think a lot of us do dangerous things (smoking, drinking, being reckless ect) searching for it. it also takes responsibility off of you. no one gets blamed for dying of cancer like they get blamed for dying by suicide. i don't actively wish for it to happen to me tho

 

[Division Day]

Well, organs from person who ctb are least preffered but with current organ shortage crisis they don't look as down on it as they used to. I guess also depends how you ctb, not sure.

I honestly had no idea there was a preference. I just meant that most methods don't leave anything of use, and even if your method didn't ruin your liver they'd need to find you very quickly to salvage it... and we can't really risk being found quickly in case we're "saved" with bad damage.

It sucks.

 

[flower_g1rl]

happy

 

[Blurry_Buildings]

1. "Oh how terrible!" I exclaim while taking 1-2 days to "come to terms" with my fate. The masses are upset but understanding.
2. Buy life insurance
3. Die

 

[Passersby]

I would be glad to hear that. There was a time when I wouldn't have wanted to hear that and would have been upset but that is not the case anymore. As long as it wasn't drawn out and I didn't have to suffer with whatever it was going to be that kills me. I also wouldn't have to ctb then.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

I would be so happy to hear it, course I'd not show my joy. I would be so happy to have a great supply of narcotics & just get to death already. I've accepted that no matter what my life will be shit & horrible suffering as long as I'm alive. Seriously the best part of my day is when I can cross the day off the calendar, meaning I'm closer to being done. So in short I'd be fucking thrilled

 

[Duality]

It would really depend on how much time I'd have left. But I know for sure I'd be relieved that I can quit my job, and I'd also be rushing to get things in order (will, passwords, general organization, etc.).

 

[passivethought121]

Extremely relieved. If it's going to be at any time, I would spend every possible last moment in my room. If it's only when I'm asleep, I'll spend every day exploring and looking at places within a 24 hour radius.

 

[Ksmиda]

That would be great, because I wouldn't have to kill myself and be known as that one person that comitted suicide. It would also mean that if there is a god, then I won't go to hell since I died of natural causes.
I could also just give up doing the things I have to everyday and be truly free.

 

[AboutTom]

How would you feel if someone told you that you're dying (quite soon).
You no longer have a choice over where/when/how you die (kinda) but you also no longer have to fight your SI nor make your ctb plan.
What would be your reaction?

hoping for this every day

 

[painIess]

I'd probably buy some crazy expensive whiskey to celebrate, then get underwhelmed because it probably wouldn't be as good as I expected and go back to the good old Wild Turkey 101

 

[NeedAnEscape]

Based on that information alone, I would be afraid, since I do not know how I will die. If I knew that I was going to die in my sleep / some other peaceful method, then I wouldn't be so worried. I would want to get everything I want to do before I die done as soon as possible. I would write letters to my loved ones, visit the places I want to see, and do whatever I want, knowing that the end is coming. I would also want to know how soon the death was going to be. While I may not get an exact death, knowing if it would be in six months, three months, a month, two weeks, a week, etc... would help me plan my end to be as fulfilling as it could be.

 

[OreosAndDeath]

I'd turn into the guy from the video where he says "lord have mercy I'm about to bust"

But seriously, I'd buy a ton of stimulants and try to speedrun a bunch of books. Then just before I go I'll finally try meth.

 

[sserafim]

How would you feel if someone told you that you're dying (quite soon).
You no longer have a choice over where/when/how you die (kinda) but you also no longer have to fight your SI nor make your ctb plan.
What would be your reaction?

I would be happy. Finally I have a guaranteed way out of this world. I would go traveling and eat as much good food as I could before I die.

 

[Ashu]

This may actually be my situation. I've let a serious sign of deadly illness go for a few years. As time passes, any relief I once felt at the prospect is steadily being overshadowed by growing terror at what will likely be a very slow and agonizing death, and by remorse for the eventual separation from my wife and the suffering this will cause her.