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moya117

moya117

A replacement that can easily get replaced
Mar 31, 2023
277
my family still needs me
i have to earn money for my family
i want to buy a tablet so i can draw freely
i want to tell a tale about my experiences to the world with my drawings
i want to go to uni someday
i at least want to finished one sewing project
i at least want to master one dance choreography
i want to cosplay as many male characters as possible
i want to atleast can play one song on lyre
i want to know whats wrong with me
 
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UninformedLover

UninformedLover

"We will fight it together...as a family."
Nov 12, 2019
312
My friend is buying us movie tickets to see the thunderbolts next month
 
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L9my

L9my

L789 is bliss
Nov 22, 2024
747
my girlfriend is still alive
i'm still young enough to hopefully not fuck up my life
 
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L9 CHOCOIRL

L9 CHOCOIRL

L9L9L9L9
Nov 3, 2023
253
@ma0
@whitetaildeer
@Namelesa
this keeps me going
 
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ma0

ma0

How did I get here?
Dec 20, 2024
624
@ma0
@whitetaildeer
@Namelesa
this keeps me going
namelesa and whitetaildeer i can understand, but ma0? that guy? really?

i mean i don't judge but.... not what i would've chosen :/
 
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L9 CHOCOIRL

L9 CHOCOIRL

L9L9L9L9
Nov 3, 2023
253
namelesa and whitetaildeer i can understand, but ma0? that guy? really?

i mean i don't judge but.... not what i would've chosen :/
True, I agree with this.
 
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cme-dme

cme-dme

Ready to go to bed
Feb 1, 2025
473
Still young enough for the possibility of a miracle to pull me out of this mess
Wanna try more drugs because I just think they're neat! The safe ones though not the life ruining ones...
 
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deikol

Member
Jul 29, 2024
10
Mostly family and waiting for some shows to drop
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Global Mod · Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
1,859
SaSu cus I am valued here and I feel like I am of use
Game development with finishing the games I want to make
 
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meowmentous

meowmentous

trying to survive
Apr 7, 2025
51
It always goes back to my cats for me. For one of them, I am her person. She jumps and climbs and kneeds on me. She purrs and sleeps on my bed. She loves me so much. She wouldn't understand. I can't do that to her. I can't let her lose her person.
 
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Weird.loser

Weird.loser

Member
Dec 1, 2024
16
Pokemon romhacks and reading manga till 4am
 
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iamanavalanche

iamanavalanche

fast words, deliverance
May 20, 2024
137
@DeadNotSleeping and my dog
 
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3ngel

3ngel

princess
Nov 26, 2024
67
my ex-boyfriend wants to see me better, but i honestly cant and also my cat!
 
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artificialpasta

artificialpasta

Student
Feb 2, 2020
175
Strictly speaking, nothing. I've packed my things such that I'm good to go if I started fasting now and booked a hotel. I'm internally ready for it.

But I can list things I like about being alive.

Consciousness by itself is interesting. When you start thinking about death the tiny details about how certain textures feel suddenly become more noticeable.

I like reading and learning and thinking about things. My dream was to do a good postgrad program and in a world where I wasn't depressed or lonely I would be sailing toward that goal on full steam.

I like good food. I'm craving for mutton biryani right now...

I love dogs and cats.
 
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SchizoGymnast

SchizoGymnast

Specialist
May 28, 2024
394
What keeps me going in the idea that I'm on the cusp of greatness.
 
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SecretDissociation

SecretDissociation

Suicide enthusiast
Sep 11, 2022
398
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My children
The fact that I'm actually a hard-worker and have worked through things so surely I can work through this as well
 
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ilvgore

ilvgore

alien
Jan 7, 2024
152
i need money for my perfect suicide plan, much money because i want to spend my last days at a theme park and then dissappear into the woods♡
so yeah working crappy long shifts keep me going and my crazy wishful thinking that im someone special and it will all make sense
 
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notrllycherub

notrllycherub

Apr 18, 2025
39
i'd hate to leave my my mom, cat, and friends behind

i'm seriously hoping that i will get into uni

there are movies i want to watch and songs i want to listen to

i want to start drawing again
 
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landmine

landmine

lovesickness
Mar 12, 2023
98
my boyfriend and future life with him!
wanting to finish school
get my first job ever
and just collecting future figures i like🤍🤍
 
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maneose

maneose

天天天国地獄国
Sep 10, 2023
142
feeling sadness for the baby my parents had
 
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Apokryphiel

Apokryphiel

Leave me
Mar 23, 2025
104
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The thought of being something I'm not.
 
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Subhumano

Subhumano

I dont have friends
Apr 20, 2025
170
My mother would be sad
 
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moya117

moya117

A replacement that can easily get replaced
Mar 31, 2023
277
Strictly speaking, nothing. I've packed my things such that I'm good to go if I started fasting now and booked a hotel. I'm internally ready for it.

But I can list things I like about being alive.

Consciousness by itself is interesting. When you start thinking about death the tiny details about how certain textures feel suddenly become more noticeable.

I like reading and learning and thinking about things. My dream was to do a good postgrad program and in a world where I wasn't depressed or lonely I would be sailing toward that goal on full steam.

I like good food. I'm craving for mutton biryani right now...

I love dogs and cats.
i can definitely relate to "When you start thinking about death the tiny details about how certain textures feel suddenly become more noticeable."
wishing you a peaceful rest
 
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charliewantstodie

Member
Apr 18, 2025
14
my beautiful friend sam
the idea of a different world
this line from a poem our friend Zoe wrote- she passed away two years ago
"some people remember a time before the empire: some people will build gardens with its remains"
 
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monetpompo

monetpompo

૮ • ﻌ - ა
Apr 21, 2025
231
my best friend!!!!! ‪‪❤︎‬‪‪❤︎‬‪‪❤︎‬
i don't know what he sees in me but i'm glad he's someone that believes in me when i don't believe in myself. it makes the world feel less harsh. i'm worried about the day he stops caring about me
 
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loser4ever4life

Student
Apr 10, 2025
121
My girlfriend, she's the most precious thing to me in the whole world. It would break her heart knowing what I'm about to do. Making her laugh has been one of the things that still gives me joy, holding her gives me some warmth. She's so goofy as well, I could listen to her talk for hours and I often do happily.

I don't want to think about how she will cry.
 
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