Help Possible to CTB in a facility??

[illvoid]

please help. i am in a residential facility (not psych or rehab, I have access to a lot more things than I would in those situations but it is still pretty limited). i don't want to be alive anymore. it fucking hurts. i don't have a single day that goes by where I'm not upset over insignificant things and desperately seeking attention and comfort from other people. I have no idea how to manage my own emotions, and I am more often than not struggling mentally. I really would appreciate if someone could help me out. i am also able to go back 'home' on passes, but I still do live with my parents and would like to avoid them finding me. Can anyone provide some kind of tips? I don't feel like I can get better at this point.