[POLL] What could save me?

[esistzeit]

If I had this thing in my life, then it would be worth living it.

I'm so broken I lack everything... But most prominently Health & Love.

 

[drag201]

To me personally, I don't think anything would be able to "save" me completely from wanting to die. I feel like if I had all of the options you put up there I would still feel empty and worthless deep down somehow and it would keep swallowing me even if I have it all in life. I hope you can find something that can make you feel like staying is worth it, even if it's just for a little while. Take care

 

[outrider567]

Nothing

 

[peerlesscucumber]

Health, absolutely. I'm 99% sure I wouldn't hate myself so much if I wasn't born with so many "small" issues that will affect me life long but will never be serious enough for people to care for me

 

[seraph168]

Children maybe, that's the only thing that I could think of personally that would make me think twice. Maybe also, finding some purpose in giving. Such as aiding people in third world counties. That kind of work would surely help a mind that is broken, at least for a little while.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case existence could never be desirable no matter what, I'd never wish to be conscious and aware burdened with something so futile and torturous as human existence, I'd never wish to suffer for decades just to decay and be tormented by extreme old age. I personally don't see any value or point to existence in the first place and what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself.

I'd always prefer to not exist especially as nobody can be harmed by not existing yet there is unlimited potential to suffer in this existence I never would have chose that was always completely futile, I see existence as a terrible tragic mistake that just causes pointless suffering until one dies anyway, it terrifies me how a human can potentially exist for so long in this reality filled with endless pain and torment.

 

[sserafim]

Money

 

[Heavy Rain]

Yeah purpose, because I'm living proof
I almost killed myself in 2017
I'm only still here because I turned to God
You can decide for yourself if it's just a defense mechanism in my brain or whatever
I've comed to believe it's true for many reasons, allthough I do struggle with having faith when things gets really bad. It's not easy. I mean, there's a reason I'm on this forum.
But Christianity is the only place where I've found any sort of meaning/pupose in my pain

Money/health isn't enough, just look at the celebrities, they often get worse
Allthough people can find some sort of meaning in making money (materialism). But I don't think it will ever be forfilling

Family, friends, romantic love = purpose

 

[xxRoro]

Good poll

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I voted money since that's the closest one in there which aligns with my answer but, if I could choose something to save me, I'd choose euthanasia. What could save me is avoiding life itself. Money is great and having lots of it would make me enjoy life but, unfortunately, money as well as age is transient. I'd eventually get annoyed with life and want to escape life as I don't want to reach old age. I just don't want to be a human; it's so mentally and physically draining

Money

How much of it would save you?

 

[No More Tears]

Nothing can save me. I'm done with living. I lost everything 9 years ago and I don't know why I'm still here.

 

[kyhoti]

Nothing can rescue me from what is coming. All of it is palliative care.

 

[ForgottenAgain]

I don't know if having those things would save me, the one that possibly would have the most chance of doing so would be Purpose

 

[sugarb]

If I had this thing in my life, then it would be worth living it.

I'm so broken I lack everything... But most prominently Health & Love.

As someone with everything but purpose (and money I'm kinda broke lol, but my conditions are perfectly fine)- when it comes down to it if you aren't happy and fulfilled in life and/or driven to do something everything else listed becomes either unimportant or a restriction. Staying because you don't want your loved ones to be upset isn't truly staying imo, you're just delaying/refusing CTB out of raw empathy- which at a certain point becomes a purpose

 

[Fantasy22]

I feel like only one won't save me but if I were to have multiple, likes friends, family, rich, hobbies/passion, like a good functioning member or society I would I want to stay. But only one might feel good for a while but I will probably fall back into depression after a whike

 

[mistymoo]

I never thought of this before. It's actually so fucking sad because I have a purpose but my health going to shit and loneliness will be my undoing

 

[manic-dream]

I said a family and a purpose. For me, even if I had the other things I don't think I would be comfortable living at all still. Friends, romantic life, money, and good health never made me want to keep pushing. But at least with me, having a decent family has held me back so much from even preparing fully to die. My brother will come into my room to talk at the wrong time and it completely changes my perspective, I have to go on whether I like it or not because people need me in a way even if it doesn't seem apparent. It's still constant torture living thinking like this but it saves me and I think it saves a lot of people.

I also said a purpose because I think having a purpose in life drives any one to just live and have that want.

 

[Freedomatlast24]

A new brain (without all the things holding me back), a fresh mindset/life experience. A reset body & soul that wasn't in freeze/fight or flight mode.

Then from all of that I could appreciate my friends, family & find purpose etc. idk

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Money is the only thing that could help because money could help me make my suicide methods more reliable.

Purpose. i already have my purpose to get out of this prison / slavery / torture / imposition evil life and evil world prison.

The only thing i want is sucessful suicide asap . whatever can help that is what is important to me.

I don't want anything else from this evil world and evil life. i don't want any friends or romantic love nor anything except non-existence forever. what could matter in 150 years, 1000 years, a trillion years , none of that, nothing i could do no friends , nothing would matter , nothing matters. I don't want to suffer extremely which is the only thing that matters to me

"save" me from what Death? Death is inevitable. you can't save a life because we all will die anyway.

"save" me to do what to exist as a slave and being a brain that can suffer unbearable pain? i never asked for this abomination called life.

Who would sign up for this: You get a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain. Furthermore life and this world is a minefield . on top of that you won't get any real education on how to avoid the mines. chances are something very horrible will happen to you. also you have to suffer every day and work every day doing a job chores solving problems trying to get along with difficult humans under threat of diseases, 100's of very horrible things , oppression, lies, injustice , scams, and you will get very old and very likely be in pain and demented when very old . All this and much more horrible things all for no purpose. meaningless suffering for no purpose. And if you complain you will be ostracized ridiculed.

 

[Minsu]

I've been asking this question to myself numerous times and the answer is nothing. There's nothing that could save me :(

 

[misatosdiary]

Purpose if you long to fulfill your purpose.

 

[anopenwound]

Extremely tempted to click on Romantic Love as I thought all my life that was gonna be the answer (classic BPD). Now I know it was never true. I have no idea what could save me.

 

[astr4]

purpose for me. if i felt like i could genuinely make the world a better place and not just slap a bandaid on it i would stick around.

 

[sos]

i think that ill be going for option 7

a time machine

 

[esistzeit]

i think that ill be going for option 7

a time machine

How far back would you like to go?

I myself often fantasize about going back to the age of 5 and doing everything right this time around.

 

[sos]

How far back would you like to go?

back and forth

the time machine won't be something that i can only use once, of course

just go thru the time w/o the need to relive every single second

it'd be a fun thing to play around w

 

[Terios]

i think that ill be going for option 7

a time machine

If only I could go a year back and do some things differently