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How old were you in your earliest memory?

  • <2 years old

    Votes: 10 10.8%
  • 2-4 years old

    Votes: 58 62.4%
  • 5-7 years old

    Votes: 20 21.5%
  • 8-10 years old

    Votes: 3 3.2%
  • >10 years old

    Votes: 2 2.2%

  • Total voters
    93
Alexei_Kirillov

Alexei_Kirillov

More beast than man
Mar 9, 2024
1,136
When you go back as far as you can go in your mind, to your earliest memory, how old were you? I sometimes wonder how rare my situation is, where my memories don't start until about age 10.
 
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ma0

ma0

How did I get here?
Dec 20, 2024
370
My earliest memory was breaking one of my toys when I was 3 years old or something, and bawling my fucking eyes out. Up to that point it was one of the worst days of my life.

Oh how little did I know that later down the line, a broken toy would be the least of my concerns...
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,543
5 or 6 years old. The start of my PTSD.

I witnessed my father and his brother fighting, screaming, throwing furniture. Legitimately trying to kill each other. Dad eventually grabbed me and ran out of the apartment. I don't remember where we went, I just remember worrying I'd never see Mom again [she was at work and this was long before cell phones were common].
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
929
I hardly remember much but I vaguely remember what it was like being in a pushchair and putting something like toys either side of me on it so I would assume that happened before the age of 2 but I can't be certain of it. I wish I could be put in a pushchair like a baby or toddler again to feel looked aftered and cared for.
 
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LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
495
Nearly being crushed by a falling cr tv when I was 3. I wished I was crushed, it would have saved me a lot of trouble
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
630
I remember standing in diapers with a hammer in an abandoned house we moved out of, and I was planning to hammer the floor. I also remember my parents fighting a lot. That was around 3-4 because my mom left when I was 4.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,258
My earliest memory is the day my youngest sister was born. I was 45 months old. I mainly just remember staying at my grandparents' house while my parents were at the hospital. At one point they took me over there to see my sister but my mom and dad were arguing over something as usual. I think this is also the first time I had ice cream or at least it's my earliest memory eating it.
 
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loneloser

loneloser

i wanna sleep 4ever <3
Jan 16, 2025
94
being pushed around in a stroller in a museum, i saw a penguin mannequin. or maybe it was being at the back of the bus on the way to the museum with the rest of my family, in a stroller.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
10,862
Most likely I was 2 or 3. I didn't realise the enormity of it either. Climbing the blue carpetted stairs with a drink in a beaker for my Mum. She was dying of cancer. ☹️ F*ck life eh?
 
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OptingOutSmiling

OptingOutSmiling

Arcanist
Nov 25, 2024
439
Not sure about this one, it's like I see photos but not sure it I remember them happening. But my sister is 5 years younger than me, and I remember trying to lift her from a bath when she slipped and broke a tooth. I must've been already 6 or so if she had baby teeth. Before this I'm not sure of actual memories, I do see things but cannot say how old I was. So, I'm going with 5-7.
 
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yellowjester

yellowjester

Arcanist
Jun 2, 2024
415
When I was 3 or 4 years old, being picked up by my great grandfather from the train station and driven to his old homestead right at the edge of a forest. It was so quiet and remote there that they would often have deer coming to their window and asking for food (sadly I was never lucky enough to witness it myself). Some of my fondest memories are from that place.
 
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sammiechzxv

sammiechzxv

just a girl who's kinda sad
Aug 7, 2023
276
4, it was the first time I saw my dad hitting my mom. I was very confused and scared, unfortunately vivid memory.
 
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JesiBel

JesiBel

Harpy
Dec 5, 2024
173
When I was 4 years old, I fell on a playground and I broke my arm, the doctor put a cast on me. It was a very hot summer day.
 
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cme-dme

cme-dme

Ready to go to bed
Feb 1, 2025
306
Don't remember exactly how old I was but my earliest memory is getting into a car crash. Rear ended this huge 'fuck you' pickup truck and our car actually went under the truck. It was just me and my mom in the car and we weren't hurt. That was probably some real shit for me back then.
Another early memory was when I got severely burned as a kid. Basically I was with my babysitter and she was making mac and cheese. She asked me to get milk out of the fridge as she was holding the pot of hot water. I turned around, bumped into her and boiling water came down on my shoulder and chest. The babysitter was too scared to tell my mom about what happened so it took a couple hours until I was brought to the hospital. I still got my mac and cheese though :) There's still a scar from the burn on my shoulder...
I vividly remember sitting on the couch, a blanket wrapped around me as I watched cartoons on TV, eating my mac and cheese and crying at the same time while the babysitter was presumably losing her shit lol.
 
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SadFoxDreamer83

SadFoxDreamer83

Student
Feb 7, 2025
141
My first memory is the full moon, I was amazed looking at it from the back seat of the car, I must have been 6 or 7 years old.

Moon mars 2022 12 08 04 51 55 ISO200 FP0 L 1701 EOS 40D  8Cthumb2a5aad9ce5238e215d229c25
 
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nomoredolor

nomoredolor

Specialist
Sep 7, 2024
347
My first memory is of my mom walking me in my stroller past the cemetery.
 
Alexsei

Alexsei

Member
Feb 8, 2025
18
My first memory was me around 2-3 years old, licking the sugar cubes at the coffee table at the church my family went to and putting them back in the container. I was a horrible kid.
 
NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
210
I remember running across the road and almost being hit by a car when I was like 4 or 5. Got some scolding from the driver lol.
 
Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

The one who has lost a lot, fears nothing.
Oct 21, 2024
259
The earliest memory I have I was 5 or 6 and started a fire at home and the fire dept had to come and out it out.

I also remember a time when my mom would walk me some place, and drop me off. I think it was a kids daycare center. I don't remember how old I was then.
 
eattwinkiesseejesus

eattwinkiesseejesus

Praying for death to a God that doesn't answer
Jan 18, 2025
14
I was still in the crib so under 3 years of age, I've always been known for my good memory but I've always just wished I could forget it all
 
sadalways

sadalways

My birth was an error
Sep 5, 2024
127
Around 4-5 and i clearly remember it to this day because i was playing resident evil 3 on my ps1, i saw the first zombie and i started crying, ripped the tv cords out and ran to my mom, had nightmares for years after that :pfff::pfff:
 
sancta-simplicitas

sancta-simplicitas

Mage
Dec 14, 2023
518
2 or 3 years old. My mother was coming home from work and I ran to greet her in the door.

30 years later and I am staying far away from her.
 
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Mattt_K

Member
Apr 29, 2024
8
My earliest memories are of my grandfather, truly fond memories. My family was surprised when I told them certain things in detail because he died when I was 3.
 
Electra

Electra

The relief of giving in to destruction
Jul 1, 2024
419
Hm, reading these memories and I'm like...do I have any vivid ones and not just random pieces cut out?
 
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nails

nails

not much to look at
Feb 12, 2023
147
oh, a lot of these are sad and intense.

my earliest memory is watching Oswald (w cartoon) while my brothers got ready for school. i was about 3 or 4.
 
Unhumanly.

Unhumanly.

Recovery are not the winner.
Feb 24, 2023
284
3
I hated living in poor village home the dust are choking me
 

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