I failed a lot because I used to think that just overdosing would be sufficient and I couldn't overcome my survival instinct enough to do full suspension hanging or jump off a bridge. If I had known about partial suspension hanging, I would've died at 14 or 15. Also, some of them were very serious and I did with the full intention of dying, others I was happy with either dying or getting help. But now I know what I'm doing and can make sure I won't get found in time, I don't think I will fail next time. I also don't have hope for the future.