Has a lack of friendship and/or a romantic relationship contributed to your desire to ctb?

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I have no empathy for privileged people.
Apr 19, 2022
The lack of a romantic relationship exacerbated it, but I would still CTB even if I had a relationship.

I used to question the saying "You cannot be loved, unless you love yourself", but as my self hate grows, it makes a lot of sense.

Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
It's hard to say really. I expect my life would have been very different- and maybe better if I had a partner and friends. Still, it's not exactly something that is driving me to CTB. I'd say I was a natural loner- I'm actually very comfortable with my own company. So- while it's something that may have stopped me from getting to this point- it isn't something I long for. How about you?


Apr 11, 2023
It is definitely a huge factor for me wanting to ctb, but not the sole reason.

I know that being in a relationship isn’t going to solve my problems, but I think it might give me a reason to live. I really just need to take care of someone. It’s hard to say if I would still ctb.

As for friends, I have a few. They are all long distance and that’s good enough for me. It would be nice to have a few more, locally, to do things with but not a necessity.
Just a lot of factors at play here…


She dreams of eternal sleep
Sep 24, 2020
No, absolutely not. I would rather avoid other people personally, and anyway relationships usually just lead to more suffering as you cannot trust and rely on people, I think that such a thing makes people feel even more suicidal. It’s better to be alone, this shallow human species just reminds me of why this world truly is such a hellish place.


Apr 30, 2023
Yes, to both. I can‘t connect with other people and it makes me feel completely alien. I just keep isolating and avoiding others both online and irl. After a while my loneliness becomes to unbearable for me to handle because I hate my own presence, but I can’t just open up to people no matter how hard I try. I will always be alone and I hate that.


Aug 23, 2018
I have a very small social circle. I mean yes, I have many acquaintances, but I'd consider maybe only 1 or 2 peopl to actually be friends. As far as romantic relationships go, I've said this in a previous thread a while ago, but my ex breaking up with me wasn't a reason to ctb, but she certainly took away a reason for me to live.


dark eyed and miserable
May 19, 2023
the few friends I've got don't care much about me, and I've never been in a relationship, I just find it incredibly difficult to click with other people, maybe if that wasn't the case things would be different but they're not and in this reality it seems inevitable to ctb


Wake me up before I go go
Apr 15, 2023
All the people that I have had a romantic relationship has left me out of the blue and never speak to me again so when I do find someone I alway get scared to commit to them and I’m a back up friend so if my friends first pick is not there I’m the rebound it is what it is tho


May 7, 2023
My wife is one of the main reasons I want to CTB. I’d probably be content enough of life if I wasn’t stuck to her. It’s interesting because many in this forum think that, if they had someone to take care of, their lives would be better. In my case, I am forced to take care of her, a hypochondriac that refuses therapy, and I can’t stand her fictional illnesses and exaggerated worries. My life was ruined by being with her.
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